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howwww can so much of my identity be CSS (desk supervisor, if you're not familiar with the lingo). im not even a CSS anymore!
don't get me wrong, i don't hate my new job in courtyards. i love my apartment and so far am pretty neutral to the job - it's hard to be anything about it really, i've barely met any of my residents and i think it'll be so different when school starts.
mayybe i'm a control freak. well we know im a control freak. but i don't even think that's why i miss the desk. maybe i'm just lonely and like knowing that i have a staff member at a 24 hour desk three floors below me and i can always go see what's going on down there (how many times did i get up in the middle of the night to hang out at the desk? probably never). i think there's just some sort of security in that type of staff for me.
i am soo ready to be out of the dorms, and glad to be in my apartment. but sometimes it just feels so empty. i'm so busy most of the time but on the rare occasion that i'm not....i guess i don't handle having nothing to do very well.
it m akes me wonder how i'm going to handle it one day when i don't have a job where i work - because one day i would like to have that distance between work and home. but when i live where i work i have this fallback where there's always people around and i'm never really alone (that's much less true in the apartment than the dorm...i think that's why im freaking out). but i really don't wanna live where i work forever, in fact, i'd like to not do that at all after grad school. but so much of my college life has been that way and i know i can come across as a workaholic, which...i am. will i really be able to handle coming home from work, eating dinner, then being....at HOME and alone?
i sound really pathetic. so while im at it, if anyone is trying to set me up with someone....? haha. for those of you who aren't keeping track, i don't care if i date men or women.
don't get me wrong, i don't hate my new job in courtyards. i love my apartment and so far am pretty neutral to the job - it's hard to be anything about it really, i've barely met any of my residents and i think it'll be so different when school starts.
mayybe i'm a control freak. well we know im a control freak. but i don't even think that's why i miss the desk. maybe i'm just lonely and like knowing that i have a staff member at a 24 hour desk three floors below me and i can always go see what's going on down there (how many times did i get up in the middle of the night to hang out at the desk? probably never). i think there's just some sort of security in that type of staff for me.
i am soo ready to be out of the dorms, and glad to be in my apartment. but sometimes it just feels so empty. i'm so busy most of the time but on the rare occasion that i'm not....i guess i don't handle having nothing to do very well.
it m akes me wonder how i'm going to handle it one day when i don't have a job where i work - because one day i would like to have that distance between work and home. but when i live where i work i have this fallback where there's always people around and i'm never really alone (that's much less true in the apartment than the dorm...i think that's why im freaking out). but i really don't wanna live where i work forever, in fact, i'd like to not do that at all after grad school. but so much of my college life has been that way and i know i can come across as a workaholic, which...i am. will i really be able to handle coming home from work, eating dinner, then being....at HOME and alone?
i sound really pathetic. so while im at it, if anyone is trying to set me up with someone....? haha. for those of you who aren't keeping track, i don't care if i date men or women.