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I hate that feeling, when you know you're doing the rational thing but it doesn't make you feel any better. Maybe my parents had more of an effect on me than I thought. I used to think you could be ruled by your conscience and sort of just somehow know what the right thing to do is. But what if you know that the right thing and the rational thing are completely different? If only the rational thing will work but you feel bad about yourself if you aren't doing the RIGHT thing.
Of course doing the right thing only makes people not like you. But if you stop doing it, it's like you're feeding in to the very same problems that you want to help fix by doing the right thing. Or is it? I'm not sure...
Realistically, one person can only do so much, but in my heart I actually believe that most people want to make a difference. But we push those desires aside because it's too impossible and frustrating. It's easier to just live your own life rather than worry about other people. So maybe we become these selfish people when we realize that you really can't trust anyone but yourself...when in fact, we worry about ourselves because it's all we can control, the one piece of good that is in everyone might be impossible to combine with what is good in other people. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe people are just inherently selfish. But I think it would depress me less to think that we are turned that way; that people aren't born assholes.
Of course doing the right thing only makes people not like you. But if you stop doing it, it's like you're feeding in to the very same problems that you want to help fix by doing the right thing. Or is it? I'm not sure...
Realistically, one person can only do so much, but in my heart I actually believe that most people want to make a difference. But we push those desires aside because it's too impossible and frustrating. It's easier to just live your own life rather than worry about other people. So maybe we become these selfish people when we realize that you really can't trust anyone but yourself...when in fact, we worry about ourselves because it's all we can control, the one piece of good that is in everyone might be impossible to combine with what is good in other people. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe people are just inherently selfish. But I think it would depress me less to think that we are turned that way; that people aren't born assholes.