time for what may be awkward

Jun 27, 2008 13:24

Well, someone was going to have to address it!

First, though, let me say that the things on the forefront of my mind deal directly with my family, and concerns about money, work, cars, and the cleaning/packing/selling the house. I am so busy being distressed with those things that I have a hard time pouring buckets of emotion and thought towards other events in my life. This does not make me heartless or self-centered, mind you - just busy and family-oriented. So if I don’t talk about other serious emotional events in my life, it’s because I honest-to-God don’t have the energy for it.

Regardless of that, let’s go ahead and try, eh?

For those of us who are a bit behind on our news, Kurt and I have broken up. Out of respect for him, I won’t go deep into details. I will say, though, that it stemmed from a mutual understanding that our lives were a bit different from what we had initially believed about ourselves and each other. There wasn’t a nasty scene, there was no name calling, no accusations, no screaming and crying, and it wasn’t that we don’t like each other very much. We are just looking for different things.

I don’t know how he feels, but I can say with certainty that my relationship with Kurt was the healthiest I have ever been in, and the one in which I matured the most. The one argument we got into was handled gracefully, and I did not resort to psychological warfare or attempting to send Kurt on guilt trips. When we broke up, it was simply because we weren’t right for each other. Kurt wasn’t a bastard and I wasn’t a bitch. I did not fearfully drag out the inevitable for months, which is a fun new thing for me, as well. This may sound weird, but I'm honestly really proud of myself for how well I did in this relationship. On a similar note, I'm also proud of Kurt for the same thing, especially since he claimed he had no idea what he was doing.

Kurt makes an awesome boyfriend, and I very much hope he finds a girl who understands him better than I was able to, who appreciates and cares for his family even more than I do, and who fits perfectly into his life plans.

And oh, you know, I want everyone to find love and all that. I mean, duh. Of course.
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