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Neil brought home RUSH: In Rio on dvd and is upstairs with the stereo speakers hooked up to the tv and is listening at full blast. I really tried to like Rush so we could listen to them together, but now I know that no matter how much weed I smoke, there is no way I will ever like Rush. Oh well, at least it's over soon.
For the past few days, I've been afraid that the zoloft is making me unable to cry when I need to release pain. I watched sad movies and thought about painful memories and nothing worked after days of crying. then this morning I was so consumed with tension that I curled up next to Neil and listened to his voice and relaxed. I felt this huge pain and pressure leave me and finally cried. After that I felt so peaceful that I just went to sleep -- for the first time in a couple of days. Can you forgive the boy who shot you in the head? Or should you get a gun and go and get revenge?
For the past few days, I've been afraid that the zoloft is making me unable to cry when I need to release pain. I watched sad movies and thought about painful memories and nothing worked after days of crying. then this morning I was so consumed with tension that I curled up next to Neil and listened to his voice and relaxed. I felt this huge pain and pressure leave me and finally cried. After that I felt so peaceful that I just went to sleep -- for the first time in a couple of days. Can you forgive the boy who shot you in the head? Or should you get a gun and go and get revenge?