lookie, an update....

[lazoey]

So, yes. Im updating. Its been awhile, and since my mother is now using hers again, i figure i should use mine as well. i miss my south carolina people. Bunches. Especially on days like today, where we've been shut out (its still got five minutes left in the game and im prayin) of our own stadium. No Bueno, Chickens. No Bueno at all. But i remain strong, cause im as resilient as they come (as far as football is concerned...lol)---I'm a brookland-cayce/gamecocks/greenbay fan. Nice, huh? Oui Ve. Its been a rough couple of days... While i am very settled in here, my jobs are getting to the point where i fear i can move no further. For some of you, im sure you're reading this and goin, " hey, didnt she quit that other job cause of that?" And yes, i did. I am now searching for a full time position somewhere else. Though i'll be sad to leave both jobs, i am getting jerked around, and i dont like the feeling. I had a meeting with three of my head managers and an asmdp today (this is an immediate manager that i am supposed to go to with things on a daily basis) and the fact that we had personal issues with each other that made it hard for us to work together on a day to day schedule was on the menu. It was not a planned meeting, however. I have had trouble with the asmdp in the pas, and today as i was walking very angrily out of the store after my shift, i was approached by my asm and my manager and asked what was wrong. I explained the situation---only in tears, so the didnt know what the hell i was saying. We then pulled my immediate asm off the floor along with my asmdp and my store manager. But as we discussed what was wrong, all i could hear in my mind was "Well, lauren does this and this and this wrong, and im right because i have five damn letters on my badge, and i can boss her around." At this point, i had tears in my eyes, and my store manager jumped in and proceeded to have my back. (i love her, even if she is a damn TN fan.) She told my asmdp that whatever she had against me personally needed to be left at the door, and that if i was to bring up something personal to her again, that that asmdp would be put on probation. I loved the fact that she had my back, but my boss can be pretty harsh and sometimes it makes it almost impossible not to take what she says as serious as a heart attack... and i didnt want to scare my asmdp, i just wanted to let her know i was tired of all the personal crap getting in the way of us having a simply professional relationship, and that i needed to know why the personal stuff was there. Instead, what we got in the meeting (which i feel was the reason for the probation threat, even though it wasnt what i wanted.) was excuses and accusations. I feel like little was resolved, but i do know what to be more mindful of now, as far as my actions on the floor go, and i will think more about other's perceptions of MY work, and MY relationships with coworkers. I think im gonna go to bed now, im tired, and i have to work tommorow. I love you people. thank you for listening to me rant, i'm sorry i dont have anything good to say... But my hair was very cute today. Bueno. I miss you mom, i love ya'll big!

GO COCKS. GO EROLLS. GOD BRESS AMERICA.