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i just wrote the begging to the first real entry i have done in a LOONG time and LJ just freaked and erased it all on me, its mad at me for being away for so long
ANYWAYS..i just wanted to catch up a little i guess and sum up where i am right now. all of those really big senior events already happened, prom, graduation, yearbboks, last blast. i loved it it went really well and im glad i got to do all of those and kinda tie up all those loose strings at AHS
this summer so far has been really nice, i have been able to see and have really fun times with a lot of you, and i cant tell you how much it means to me to have all of you in my life, honestly you make time here so fun and worthwhile :) and if i have NOT been able to spend time with you do not worry we have oodles of time left (well sorta) time enough for us to chill, im really bad at getting in contact with people and its not because i dont want to see of hang out (quite the opposite) its just that im odd like that
moving on...its weird that we are moving into that time when people are starting to go away for good, grated most of us have some more time left in a-town. but vinnie already left and i know others are soon to go aswell and it really makes it hit hoime how real everything is now, im not going to see a lot of you for a long time. it makes time seem so fragile. but i know that we are moving onto some really wonderful things and it makes me really happy in the end.
goodbyes are something that i dont care much for or that i find really necessary. my memories of all of you (or at least the memories worth having) wont be those last few minuted at the airport, or the awkward hugs and forced words that we try to make sound really profound when you leve someone and relize "this is it". so before each of us go lets not spend the whole night dwelling on the futue but live in the present. i dont want all these times to be filled with sadness. it should really be a happy time and those will be the memories that last. its going to be those thoughts of "harry potter poodles" in sophmore year, or "manny the planaria" in ap bio or "patric stuwart" and most recently "sisterhood of the cake"that will remind me all of you. i just want those to be the memories i keep with me....
anyways into EVENTS, not anythign realy gigantic, haha othe tha graduating, has happened, although for some reason at this point graduation doesent feel that giganiv to me right now. my work is taking over my life, no really. i used to love my job but i have come to dread it. i want to spend my time here with yo guys and with my family not working awkwardly with people whom i really etest. they jacked up my hours and i was really not ready for it. i dont care if others can handle working 40 hours a week, i really cant. plus its such a repetitive job. and although it seems like it wouldent be stress full to me it is. i just cant plese everyone. i get complaints from all sides. if i do one thing i get the waiters up my ass. and if not the costomers complain and now there is an issue with the other hostesses being not just rude infron of costomrs they are SKANY BITCHES, and honestly you all know me, or should know me, i dont really say stuff like that a lot, i mean when im being at all serious. but i am just so angry and mad at them, it takes a lot for me not to get along with someone. im really laid back when it comes to accepting others and im really at my last draw. i had to confront yeaterday, and even though it was just a really little thing, in my book it was big bacuse i am teriifid of confrntation and i was shaking afterward, soo angry. so im cutting back my hours. its just that i am really working too much nd its taking over my life and im getting so caought up in the stupid drama. either that or im quitting, and honestly i ned the money, catch-22
ok i guess thats end for now. i hope all is well and i hope that his doesent spark a big lj jag for me, i dont think it will. maybe ill write something else after orienation (soo son) im leving next sunday and im really exited. but roomate still hasent e-mailed me back, and that kinda worries me, so again we will just see what happens
ok thats end, time to wash out my hair,
LAURA
ANYWAYS..i just wanted to catch up a little i guess and sum up where i am right now. all of those really big senior events already happened, prom, graduation, yearbboks, last blast. i loved it it went really well and im glad i got to do all of those and kinda tie up all those loose strings at AHS
this summer so far has been really nice, i have been able to see and have really fun times with a lot of you, and i cant tell you how much it means to me to have all of you in my life, honestly you make time here so fun and worthwhile :) and if i have NOT been able to spend time with you do not worry we have oodles of time left (well sorta) time enough for us to chill, im really bad at getting in contact with people and its not because i dont want to see of hang out (quite the opposite) its just that im odd like that
moving on...its weird that we are moving into that time when people are starting to go away for good, grated most of us have some more time left in a-town. but vinnie already left and i know others are soon to go aswell and it really makes it hit hoime how real everything is now, im not going to see a lot of you for a long time. it makes time seem so fragile. but i know that we are moving onto some really wonderful things and it makes me really happy in the end.
goodbyes are something that i dont care much for or that i find really necessary. my memories of all of you (or at least the memories worth having) wont be those last few minuted at the airport, or the awkward hugs and forced words that we try to make sound really profound when you leve someone and relize "this is it". so before each of us go lets not spend the whole night dwelling on the futue but live in the present. i dont want all these times to be filled with sadness. it should really be a happy time and those will be the memories that last. its going to be those thoughts of "harry potter poodles" in sophmore year, or "manny the planaria" in ap bio or "patric stuwart" and most recently "sisterhood of the cake"that will remind me all of you. i just want those to be the memories i keep with me....
anyways into EVENTS, not anythign realy gigantic, haha othe tha graduating, has happened, although for some reason at this point graduation doesent feel that giganiv to me right now. my work is taking over my life, no really. i used to love my job but i have come to dread it. i want to spend my time here with yo guys and with my family not working awkwardly with people whom i really etest. they jacked up my hours and i was really not ready for it. i dont care if others can handle working 40 hours a week, i really cant. plus its such a repetitive job. and although it seems like it wouldent be stress full to me it is. i just cant plese everyone. i get complaints from all sides. if i do one thing i get the waiters up my ass. and if not the costomers complain and now there is an issue with the other hostesses being not just rude infron of costomrs they are SKANY BITCHES, and honestly you all know me, or should know me, i dont really say stuff like that a lot, i mean when im being at all serious. but i am just so angry and mad at them, it takes a lot for me not to get along with someone. im really laid back when it comes to accepting others and im really at my last draw. i had to confront yeaterday, and even though it was just a really little thing, in my book it was big bacuse i am teriifid of confrntation and i was shaking afterward, soo angry. so im cutting back my hours. its just that i am really working too much nd its taking over my life and im getting so caought up in the stupid drama. either that or im quitting, and honestly i ned the money, catch-22
ok i guess thats end for now. i hope all is well and i hope that his doesent spark a big lj jag for me, i dont think it will. maybe ill write something else after orienation (soo son) im leving next sunday and im really exited. but roomate still hasent e-mailed me back, and that kinda worries me, so again we will just see what happens
ok thats end, time to wash out my hair,
LAURA