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I've stumbled upon a really strange feeling lately. I can't even describe it accurately but I'll try...
The best I think I can explain is a feeling of powerlessness, numbness and loss of faith in humanity, but being ok with that. Like I've come to grips with my current role in the world and I'm completely fine with it. It's made me a bit reclusive and unresponsive to people lately but again, I don't see this feeling as a bad thing.
Honestly, I think this is pretty close to how it might feel to reach enlightenment. I'm not buddhist but that seems like a pretty accurate description right now. The real question is if I want this feeling to end or not...it's kind of a refreshing high in itself and reverting back seems like a step backwards in emotional development for me.
The best I think I can explain is a feeling of powerlessness, numbness and loss of faith in humanity, but being ok with that. Like I've come to grips with my current role in the world and I'm completely fine with it. It's made me a bit reclusive and unresponsive to people lately but again, I don't see this feeling as a bad thing.
Honestly, I think this is pretty close to how it might feel to reach enlightenment. I'm not buddhist but that seems like a pretty accurate description right now. The real question is if I want this feeling to end or not...it's kind of a refreshing high in itself and reverting back seems like a step backwards in emotional development for me.