I'm still alive.
Want to here something fucked up?.. Good.. I was made to cry at work today...I was at work, and some guy in the bar called to me,"Hey kid, Yeah you, What's your name?"... I looked at him for a second, and was like...uhmmm...me?...then I said "I'm Christian", To which he replied, "Not you kid, You're ugly", and then he turned. I was in so much pain after that, and even now htinking about it, it hurts. People have always, and I mean ALWAYS, made fun of me, for one reason or another.. and I thought that people where past hitting so low.. but you know what?.. they aren't..People are cruel and hurtful things...I hate them. The fact that I can't just live my life quitly, without people pulling shit like that is just... upsetting. I really was hurt, and my mom saw taht and went to give him a piece of her mind, but he was already gone. I walked out back later, not knowing that he was gone, and having feared going into the bar, as to not be hurt like taht again through verbal assault, and I saw the bartender girl sitting down, and I walked up to sit next to her, and she, like...moves her hand towards my crotch, so I hit her hand away and was like.. woah....wtf mate? She told me that she could se me "bulge" and that she had been going to grab it....wtf!? Then, while I was still inside working, she told my mom and dad to go on home, and that she would give me a ride home..., but no worries for anybody, I did the thing that any coward prude would do, and that was ran after the car. I rode home with mis madre y mis padre. Now I'm at home taking the online chorse for driving and whatnot...it takes so long for each section,...I end up having to wait for a while after each one.. not fun.....I have started exercising to the extreme now, running every day, lifitng wheighs, and eating right, and already (only 3 days into it) I am getting increasingly good. Also, I have been told two thing that I enjoy. the first is that most people, no matter how good they are at either, cannot sing and play guitar at the same time..the second is. kurt cobain couldn't either, and during the unplugged recording, he had another guy playing for him while he sang.. the thing that I like about this, is singing while playing is like.. nothing to me.. it is first nature, and I have no problem with it.. My mom and dad were so freaked when I played and sang my first song to them. Tommorow I get to time my mile, and then go to work, and train 2 new workers, while working with a third who has become the worst worker I've had in a while, bu...wait.. BUT...the boss is making me sloppy joes, so it's totally cool. I'm still grounded, but I was able to do this, as my parents think I'm only taking the drug and alcy test. ...fun fun... well.. I'm going to go eff of and eat brownies, wish me luck, and please visit me.. I am so lonely, and even though they are allowed to hang with me, nobody has. And, I still have to do that thing.. God, this will suck...