10,000 Days ... just the beginning of heaven
I know hate is a strong word. Sometimes, I really hate my step father. Anyone who knows him, knows how much of a asshole he is. He's just an unpleasant person all around, with little reason for being so. He's got it fuckin made around here. I'm not going to list the reasons why, just take my word for it. Just now, I'm trying to sit down and get some use out of my Ibanez guitar, i hook the thing up, turn the volume WAY down, and two notes into my excercises, he pokes his fucking head out of his room ... "I'm trying to sleep!" and slams the door shortly after. Well EXCUSE ME, Lord of the Nap! This fuck is always sleeping! It seems like everytime I want to do something that requires me to make the least bit of noise, this asshat is asleep somewhere and is disturbed by my doing whatever. Fuck you guy!
I can't wait until Nancy and I move out, which, as it turns out ... might be happening within the next couple of months. By that I mean, some time this current year. My father is going to be moving from his apartment, and will be buying a house. Upon buying said house, he is going to make sure, and yes we will be going with him to look, that there is a kick ass apartment attached to it. nancy and I will get a great starter place to move onto the next phase of our already insanely great relationship! Also, I'll be around to take care of my father, keep him in line, watch after him. After him having the stroke, I worry about him all the time, and his constant lack of continued care for his well being. So it's a win/win situation. My only concerns would be that he would take advantage of having me so close by. But we'll cross that road if and when we come to it. Plus, he's my father. He's taken care of me for so many years, far be it from me to be there when he needs me most, right? Right.
So April is insane,
I have Spring Break this coming week, which is nice.
I have many doctor's appointments, which isn't a bad thing, I would like some more information about what the fuck is going on with my chest. I am continuing on my lack of smoking venture. It's been two weeks, and I've only taken one puff of a bowl twice, and did not enjoy myself either time. I think that I am slowly working my way toward quiting both mentally and physically. I'm proud of myself none the less. I"ve showed some true resistance in stressful times to one of my major vices. Good for me.
The 17th - "Vicarious" the first Tool single off the new album is being released to the radio stations. So, though that is NOT the format I want to hear it in, I will most certainly seek it out.
The 21st is my crazy 1 Year Anniversary with Nancy :) What an excellent feeling. How cool is it to feel like I've actually won for once. That I'm getting the love I deserve from someone who wants to love and understand me. That we know who and what we are to eachother, that there is no hesitation on either end, no ill communication, ridiculous support, and many many other things that I could fill more than this post with. It's fucking great! We'll be going to Gosho (sp?) Japan for dinner to celebrate. I haven't been there in so long, it should prove to be a great time with good food! Also on this date, the much anticipated Silent Hilll opens, which I will get around to seeing at some point that weekend. There are two tenative times in the works, I will figure it out ... I always do.
The 22nd is my band's BIG NIGHT!!! As you may know, unless you've been living under a fucking rock for the past 2 months ... my band Static Poetry will be performing at The Hairy Lemon in Selden New York, at 9:00 p.m. You have to be 21 or over to get in, so make sure you are, or at least bring a fake I.D and try to get in. The admission is $5, and all money goes to the band (us) the money will be used to secure future shows, and pay off equipment for the band, so come down and support us, do your part! Plus, it's a bar, come down and get shitfaced with us!
The 23rd I will be attending Nancy's nephew's Communion ... it will be cool to see the little guy do his thing. Hopefully there will be enough drinks that I can wash away the religious barrage that is sure to come. However, I really do enjoy being around Nancy's family, they are great people ... and they appreciate having me around and really do like me, it's a warm fuzzy feeling.
The 28th we LEAVE FOR CALIFORNIA!!!!
Nancy, John, Andrea, and myself will all be attending the Coachella Festical in Indio California with the likes of: TOOL, Depeche Mode, Madonna, Scissor Sisters, Daft Punk, Massive Attack .. so on and so forth ... it's going to be one fuck of a party! After that, it's off to L.A. and Hollywood California for a few days of drinks, money flittering, and good times. The day we come home is the official release of 10,000 Days the new TOOL album ... hopefully I will have it in my hands before we leave, but if not ... that's when it comes out, and I will listen to it the whole way home!
*phew*
I can barely contain myself. my life rules sometimes. i'm hoping that the momentum of this month carries on for others. I feel a wave of positive things coming ... and I'm ready for the crashing waves!
I can't wait until Nancy and I move out, which, as it turns out ... might be happening within the next couple of months. By that I mean, some time this current year. My father is going to be moving from his apartment, and will be buying a house. Upon buying said house, he is going to make sure, and yes we will be going with him to look, that there is a kick ass apartment attached to it. nancy and I will get a great starter place to move onto the next phase of our already insanely great relationship! Also, I'll be around to take care of my father, keep him in line, watch after him. After him having the stroke, I worry about him all the time, and his constant lack of continued care for his well being. So it's a win/win situation. My only concerns would be that he would take advantage of having me so close by. But we'll cross that road if and when we come to it. Plus, he's my father. He's taken care of me for so many years, far be it from me to be there when he needs me most, right? Right.
So April is insane,
I have Spring Break this coming week, which is nice.
I have many doctor's appointments, which isn't a bad thing, I would like some more information about what the fuck is going on with my chest. I am continuing on my lack of smoking venture. It's been two weeks, and I've only taken one puff of a bowl twice, and did not enjoy myself either time. I think that I am slowly working my way toward quiting both mentally and physically. I'm proud of myself none the less. I"ve showed some true resistance in stressful times to one of my major vices. Good for me.
The 17th - "Vicarious" the first Tool single off the new album is being released to the radio stations. So, though that is NOT the format I want to hear it in, I will most certainly seek it out.
The 21st is my crazy 1 Year Anniversary with Nancy :) What an excellent feeling. How cool is it to feel like I've actually won for once. That I'm getting the love I deserve from someone who wants to love and understand me. That we know who and what we are to eachother, that there is no hesitation on either end, no ill communication, ridiculous support, and many many other things that I could fill more than this post with. It's fucking great! We'll be going to Gosho (sp?) Japan for dinner to celebrate. I haven't been there in so long, it should prove to be a great time with good food! Also on this date, the much anticipated Silent Hilll opens, which I will get around to seeing at some point that weekend. There are two tenative times in the works, I will figure it out ... I always do.
The 22nd is my band's BIG NIGHT!!! As you may know, unless you've been living under a fucking rock for the past 2 months ... my band Static Poetry will be performing at The Hairy Lemon in Selden New York, at 9:00 p.m. You have to be 21 or over to get in, so make sure you are, or at least bring a fake I.D and try to get in. The admission is $5, and all money goes to the band (us) the money will be used to secure future shows, and pay off equipment for the band, so come down and support us, do your part! Plus, it's a bar, come down and get shitfaced with us!
The 23rd I will be attending Nancy's nephew's Communion ... it will be cool to see the little guy do his thing. Hopefully there will be enough drinks that I can wash away the religious barrage that is sure to come. However, I really do enjoy being around Nancy's family, they are great people ... and they appreciate having me around and really do like me, it's a warm fuzzy feeling.
The 28th we LEAVE FOR CALIFORNIA!!!!
Nancy, John, Andrea, and myself will all be attending the Coachella Festical in Indio California with the likes of: TOOL, Depeche Mode, Madonna, Scissor Sisters, Daft Punk, Massive Attack .. so on and so forth ... it's going to be one fuck of a party! After that, it's off to L.A. and Hollywood California for a few days of drinks, money flittering, and good times. The day we come home is the official release of 10,000 Days the new TOOL album ... hopefully I will have it in my hands before we leave, but if not ... that's when it comes out, and I will listen to it the whole way home!
*phew*
I can barely contain myself. my life rules sometimes. i'm hoping that the momentum of this month carries on for others. I feel a wave of positive things coming ... and I'm ready for the crashing waves!