Jul 18, 2005 22:34
Boredom the thing that takes up most of my time when I am not working. I don't have very many friends as most of you can most likely understand. I love working at Hardees though, there is this really beautiful red head name Genevieve; I don't think she likes me very much. but anyways I had behind the wheel today and I was so tired that I kept messing up and forgetting things the instructor had to use the break on his side of the car twice during the time I was driving..... blah I need to find something to do on wednesday or im going to go insane!!!!
I feel worthless as usual, I hate being depressed but I have lost all reason for happiness, lol. I feel like I am the biggest loser in the word. Everyone always uses and abuses me, I swear the one reason god put me on this earth was for people to someone to take their anger out on. I have never been loved by anyone and prolly nvr will be.
I still miss her so much, I still think about her every passing moment. Im just glad that she has finally found happiness. love ya hun.
As you can tell I hate writting, I use to love it but my heart isn't in it anymore.