24 years ago.......a big mistake happened.
ummmm....
okay..so u know when evrything jsut stops.
then starts
then stops
and starts..and u just cant find the forward button..nor the rewind..
like the remote control of ur life is broken and only the pause button..
no.the stop button..is workin.
that option...the stop option...only works in bad times too.
nope...u cant push stop when u actually want to.
its fixed on automatic.
sweet.
my idea? just lose the freakin remote.
ummm...
its my birthday today.
with all thats been happening.
im glad...im ok....im fine...im happy...
u live..u grow up...u realize stuff.....u can deal...u can sleep and wake up and carry on and just hang in there.
no stupid suicide ideas....no i hate my life and i want to die feelings.
just everynow and then u snap.
im glad.
i went thru every little bullshit thing i went thru.
im me now.
this is what 24 years summed up to...
this.
almost quarter of a century.
me.
layla.
im strong.
i cry yes.i cry and i kick and i shout and i scream and i cry.
but i wake up..and carry on.
i love everyone that loves me back.
and dont care about anyone that doesnt care back.
simple equation.....u give....u take.
i think im lucky.....way lucky.
i got so many ppl i care about...there for me all the time.
ughhh....some arent here..with me...but they're always on my mind.
*sallie*
i fuckin miss u.....i feel like i lost my girlie side.
i dunno......if ud actually know how much im scared of when u come back...
just for the mere idea that u might be different.
i dunno.
i dont want that to happen again.
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ummmmm.....
my heart is divided in two.
but i love u both the same....
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all in all..
24 might not sound that bad.
xoxoxoxox
okay..so u know when evrything jsut stops.
then starts
then stops
and starts..and u just cant find the forward button..nor the rewind..
like the remote control of ur life is broken and only the pause button..
no.the stop button..is workin.
that option...the stop option...only works in bad times too.
nope...u cant push stop when u actually want to.
its fixed on automatic.
sweet.
my idea? just lose the freakin remote.
ummm...
its my birthday today.
with all thats been happening.
im glad...im ok....im fine...im happy...
u live..u grow up...u realize stuff.....u can deal...u can sleep and wake up and carry on and just hang in there.
no stupid suicide ideas....no i hate my life and i want to die feelings.
just everynow and then u snap.
im glad.
i went thru every little bullshit thing i went thru.
im me now.
this is what 24 years summed up to...
this.
almost quarter of a century.
me.
layla.
im strong.
i cry yes.i cry and i kick and i shout and i scream and i cry.
but i wake up..and carry on.
i love everyone that loves me back.
and dont care about anyone that doesnt care back.
simple equation.....u give....u take.
i think im lucky.....way lucky.
i got so many ppl i care about...there for me all the time.
ughhh....some arent here..with me...but they're always on my mind.
*sallie*
i fuckin miss u.....i feel like i lost my girlie side.
i dunno......if ud actually know how much im scared of when u come back...
just for the mere idea that u might be different.
i dunno.
i dont want that to happen again.
-----------------------------------------
ummmmm.....
my heart is divided in two.
but i love u both the same....
-----------------------------------------
all in all..
24 might not sound that bad.
xoxoxoxox