my life : bad attitudes!
i'm just going to rant myself about this...about my bad side.
i read all the contents in my inbox on LJ just now, and maybe i've forgotten that they are some kinds f-list that had genuinely wished me a happy birthday back in May. And i'm quite sure myself, i have not been replying them for their nice gestures. and i kinda realized, it's not a very good attitude.
fine! there might be 2 possible reasons i could think of. maybe because at that time, there's still no internet connection in my household. and we only got it quite recently, like 3-4 months ago...which actually wasn't a time of me already having in the house (since i just graduated).
but i believed, it was because of another reason. i'm just an insensitive jerk; that basically sums it all. even if i have and internet connection back then, i'd probably wouldnt be replying any. celebrating birthday has not been something that was very much attention in our family. my family is a big on, consist of 7 siblings, me being the middle one. my father was a quiet man, strict yet still had the soft spot. earlier on my childhood, i always wished him happy birthday (because his was 2 days earlier than me, and i'm a daddy's girl) and he would respond to it. his words everytime would, "do you want to talk to your mom instead?". and maybe because it was something that i grew up accustomed to...i've become like m father.
i dont know what made me rant about this today..maybe because i've been feeling a lot of regret these days...thinking of 'what if' in my head. but, i should be saying my sorry than not saying anything at all...
so..i'm sorry~
i read all the contents in my inbox on LJ just now, and maybe i've forgotten that they are some kinds f-list that had genuinely wished me a happy birthday back in May. And i'm quite sure myself, i have not been replying them for their nice gestures. and i kinda realized, it's not a very good attitude.
fine! there might be 2 possible reasons i could think of. maybe because at that time, there's still no internet connection in my household. and we only got it quite recently, like 3-4 months ago...which actually wasn't a time of me already having in the house (since i just graduated).
but i believed, it was because of another reason. i'm just an insensitive jerk; that basically sums it all. even if i have and internet connection back then, i'd probably wouldnt be replying any. celebrating birthday has not been something that was very much attention in our family. my family is a big on, consist of 7 siblings, me being the middle one. my father was a quiet man, strict yet still had the soft spot. earlier on my childhood, i always wished him happy birthday (because his was 2 days earlier than me, and i'm a daddy's girl) and he would respond to it. his words everytime would, "do you want to talk to your mom instead?". and maybe because it was something that i grew up accustomed to...i've become like m father.
i dont know what made me rant about this today..maybe because i've been feeling a lot of regret these days...thinking of 'what if' in my head. but, i should be saying my sorry than not saying anything at all...
so..i'm sorry~