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[laydeee]

ugh my mind just will not stop
ive been like really analyzing everything in my life
its making me sorta emotional
but not like im crying but im listening to sad music n being quiet and isolating
and all i want is affection
and i am seriously lacking PATIENCE
i want what i want when i want it
i want this person in my life so bad
and he is in my life, but not in that way
and i want it to be that way so fucking bad
but it just cant happen right now
i need to learn about myself first and grow
and he needs to do the same thing
and i want the affection so bad that im thinking about old boys
and ugh please
listening to dashboard confessional is gonna make me wanna slit my wrists
i am in pain but at the same time im not
im really confused
i dont know how i feel
lonely i guess
who knows
i dont want to fucking think anymore