a new beginning
i had a dream the other night about a newborn baby
i read this symbolizes a new beginning
so true so true
chase n i are going to meetings
and i think we only missed 2 since last sunday
so thats good
we are getting serious about this
i need to make some changes in my life
i need to not do all the things i used to do
bc that always leads me back to all the negative things
i basically dont have a social life anymore
and right now its really bothering me
its friday night.. 1030.. and i am home with no plans
the extent of my life is school, work, and meetings
maybe thats a good thing tho
im just really scared i guess
im scared of all these things im gonna have to face about myself
but i know its all for the better
this is something i NEED to do
if i dont do this, and i dont do this the right way, im fucked
i cant afford to get into anymore trouble
like literally, i cant AFFORD it
i just paid for my dui 1000 and then 200 and 325 to my school
bye bye savings account
it just sucks not having a car
and not really having friends anymore
im learning that most of those ppl werent really friends anyway
just people i got really really fucked up with
some have worse problems then myself
its just so hard actually feeling now
and getting thru these feelings n not resorting to anything to stop it
i gotta start sharing at meetings
but right now i guess chase n i are just feeling them out
picking out ones we wanna go to and whatnot
i feel kinda weird sharing n i think its bc hes there
and thats totally stupid
and for some reason i think he feels the same way
i dunno
but i got some of the girls numbers tonight
and one of them lives in my town
im definitley gonna call her
ok enough thinking im making myself depressed
i read this symbolizes a new beginning
so true so true
chase n i are going to meetings
and i think we only missed 2 since last sunday
so thats good
we are getting serious about this
i need to make some changes in my life
i need to not do all the things i used to do
bc that always leads me back to all the negative things
i basically dont have a social life anymore
and right now its really bothering me
its friday night.. 1030.. and i am home with no plans
the extent of my life is school, work, and meetings
maybe thats a good thing tho
im just really scared i guess
im scared of all these things im gonna have to face about myself
but i know its all for the better
this is something i NEED to do
if i dont do this, and i dont do this the right way, im fucked
i cant afford to get into anymore trouble
like literally, i cant AFFORD it
i just paid for my dui 1000 and then 200 and 325 to my school
bye bye savings account
it just sucks not having a car
and not really having friends anymore
im learning that most of those ppl werent really friends anyway
just people i got really really fucked up with
some have worse problems then myself
its just so hard actually feeling now
and getting thru these feelings n not resorting to anything to stop it
i gotta start sharing at meetings
but right now i guess chase n i are just feeling them out
picking out ones we wanna go to and whatnot
i feel kinda weird sharing n i think its bc hes there
and thats totally stupid
and for some reason i think he feels the same way
i dunno
but i got some of the girls numbers tonight
and one of them lives in my town
im definitley gonna call her
ok enough thinking im making myself depressed