and so another change...
Well, I had to say goodbye to Michael on Monday. He left Tuesday for
Texas, but no one was allowed to see him. It was one of the hardest
things. We both know it's a short time.....but I don't care how long it
is, it sucks! I have this empty feeling all the time in the pit of my
stomach. We're best friends. I've never been closer to anyone else. So
every time I need to talk.....I feel weird because it's always him I
talk to. I can still write him. But that's so different. I can only see
him in pictures for awhile and get no comforting hugs and kisses. When
it came time for us to say goodbye it was so hard. We just kept saying
"a few more minutes." I was breaking down, and told him I can't let him
go, that he can't
go. I feel
bad because I know I have made him feel bad, but he knows I'm being
strong for him. I promised I would be. The night we said goodbye I went
to Jessica's so that I would have someone there if I needed and so I
wouldn't be in our bed without him. It was so great of her to let me
stay there. She had to go to bed earlier and I knew I should have so I
laid there and played with my new phone. The next day she had to work
and so did her roommate so I had their whole apartment to myself. I
raised a Ruckus! ok, so I didn't. I watched a couple movies and read
Harry Potter. Around 3 I got a phone call from Michael though!
Unexpected, but I was so glad to hear his voice, seeing as I
thought it would have been awhile before I even heard from him. He was
at the airport and hadn't even left yet. It was short but I was happy
he called. Then Jess and I went to the mall because I get antsy. So we
just walked around and got some more pictures in the booth! good times.
I bought Center Stage cause that movie makes me happy! So I watched
that and talked to people online, last nite. Tony was reassuring me
that it will go fast for me. Sgt. Wilson said so too, so I hope they're
right! Then I wrote Michael. I can't send it yet, because I don't have
his address yet. But I don't care I'm writing him everyday. It took me
till 5 in the morn. to go to sleep though. But I'm going to try and
work on that. I don't want to disappoint the boy. Well I have Ballet
in a bit. And this has helped a little.
