THIS PART OF TOWN
For a long time this journal was mainly for my friends, to keep them updated on the things I've been doing and it has helped a lot but now I want to take it one step further. I want it to really mean something. I want to say the things I've been holding back about my life. Forget how draggy it's going to be, how melodramatic. This is going to be my journal, first and foremost, like what a journal should really be.
My status in life is: undecided. I don't know where I am exactly or where I'm going to be and for a long time I didn't care because life is in the present. But if I keep living in the present what's going to happen to me in the future? What am I going to be?
I read Siddhartha for my English 1 class. I'm not exactly sure how the class discussion went to goals and ambitions, the connection to the story of Siddhartha is a bit vague now that I think about it, or maybe it's because I was 20mins late and wasn't able to hear the discussions that contributed to the idea. Anyway, the discussion went on to say that we can never be to sure of something in our life. You could go through so many jobs until you finally find your true calling.
So when people ask me why anthropology and what will I become after college - All I can say is that it's something I am interested in and i'm not sure if it'll be something I follow through.
But that's not really the problem. The problem is choosing something that I really want to do, as of now. I seriously have NO IDEA.
I'm studying anthropology, as I said. It's a VERY interesting course, which I like because it has everything to do with man. Man is the subject, so to speak and every aspect of man is covered. I will get to learn about man in society, the different cultures. But as much as I sound interested in it, I LOVE history more.
Maybe it's because in High School history was the only subject I actually felt like studying for. Or maybe the fact that it was the only subject that we had that's a social science. Maybe it's because i'm so familiar with History that's why I love it more than anthropology.
At first this confused me. But then I started to think about getting a minor in history. If I were a history major I could get a minor in anthropology so I thought that it was the same. So, I was consoled for a while. Until I learned that it's NOT the same! The closest I could get to a minor is cultural anthropology.
So now I don't know. I'm comfortable here in anthro. My blockmates are nice, get along with them fine. Anthrosoc people are fun. Anthro library is cold. I'm getting used to things. But I REALLY like history. So why not shift right? I'm not sure i'm sad enough to shift, or if I want to go through the trouble - shifting's a hassle. Yes, I know what you're thinking. If I really love history I'd do anything to get into the course, right? But, but, I'm not sure if i love it enough to give-up on anthro.
I hate the thought of giving up on anthro. I'd rather flunk out than give up. It's really confusing.
To top it all off, I need to give my dad an answer by next sem, if I want to transfer to Ateneo or not. This is a whole different topic, which i'll talk about more in my next entry.
I'm not really asking for advice, I know that no matter what anyone tells me I'm going to find a way to bite their heads off and just go with whatever I set my mind to, if indeed I get to set my mind on anything. I'm just letting it out.
My status in life is: undecided. I don't know where I am exactly or where I'm going to be and for a long time I didn't care because life is in the present. But if I keep living in the present what's going to happen to me in the future? What am I going to be?
I read Siddhartha for my English 1 class. I'm not exactly sure how the class discussion went to goals and ambitions, the connection to the story of Siddhartha is a bit vague now that I think about it, or maybe it's because I was 20mins late and wasn't able to hear the discussions that contributed to the idea. Anyway, the discussion went on to say that we can never be to sure of something in our life. You could go through so many jobs until you finally find your true calling.
So when people ask me why anthropology and what will I become after college - All I can say is that it's something I am interested in and i'm not sure if it'll be something I follow through.
But that's not really the problem. The problem is choosing something that I really want to do, as of now. I seriously have NO IDEA.
I'm studying anthropology, as I said. It's a VERY interesting course, which I like because it has everything to do with man. Man is the subject, so to speak and every aspect of man is covered. I will get to learn about man in society, the different cultures. But as much as I sound interested in it, I LOVE history more.
Maybe it's because in High School history was the only subject I actually felt like studying for. Or maybe the fact that it was the only subject that we had that's a social science. Maybe it's because i'm so familiar with History that's why I love it more than anthropology.
At first this confused me. But then I started to think about getting a minor in history. If I were a history major I could get a minor in anthropology so I thought that it was the same. So, I was consoled for a while. Until I learned that it's NOT the same! The closest I could get to a minor is cultural anthropology.
So now I don't know. I'm comfortable here in anthro. My blockmates are nice, get along with them fine. Anthrosoc people are fun. Anthro library is cold. I'm getting used to things. But I REALLY like history. So why not shift right? I'm not sure i'm sad enough to shift, or if I want to go through the trouble - shifting's a hassle. Yes, I know what you're thinking. If I really love history I'd do anything to get into the course, right? But, but, I'm not sure if i love it enough to give-up on anthro.
I hate the thought of giving up on anthro. I'd rather flunk out than give up. It's really confusing.
To top it all off, I need to give my dad an answer by next sem, if I want to transfer to Ateneo or not. This is a whole different topic, which i'll talk about more in my next entry.
I'm not really asking for advice, I know that no matter what anyone tells me I'm going to find a way to bite their heads off and just go with whatever I set my mind to, if indeed I get to set my mind on anything. I'm just letting it out.