Nov 27, 2008 20:16
guess my art is just lame and it's strange but still somehow i'm
always not suiting their needs at this time
and she said ........don't be upset,
you know that you're wonderful
just keep on trying ...(actually what she really said was)
all you ever wanna talk about is your self and your comic books and your album and your tour
and everytime i see your friends they just ask me where you are again and it hurts
it makes me feel like dirt
i'm just gonna write where you are on my shirt
and i said don't be upset, don't be in a bad mood
let's just go to a show and hang out and feel good
come on please don't be upset my darling, please don't be upset, i'll do anything baby, just don't be upset .
so, thanksgiving was decent.
I went to connors brothers house with the doherty family.
I sat across from the crazy uncle while he attacked a turkey leg.
I was highly uncomfortable...slightly vulnerable.
on the drive to my grandmothers house in NH I started crying and yelling for a long time but it was understood and okay.
We got there, I had a couple beers and some generic valium so it was all okay.
my grandmother is so awesome, we talked about how she thinks I look like sarah palin and how so many of kevin kosner(sp?) movies generally suck. my mom made me feel a bit at ease which was unusual. pumpkin pie, apple pie. you know.
to all of you, you know who you are. Im thankful.
and to brian, thank you for calling me...It really made me happy.
love you all.