no where else to turn.

[lawrencexjames]

I haven't written in here in who knows how long. But its late and I really have no one to talk to. And that kills me, even if it were the middle of the day I don't know who I could say anything to without them being afraid I might be crazy. The number one thing right now is that I miss my mom, I hate that I cannot pick up a phone and just talk to

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[kiraisthebest]

So I know me responding to this is probably random seeing as how we don't talk buuut ... It's ok not to be happy. You shouldn't feel bad about it, or worry that people think you're crazy. The truth is, at some point, everyone is completely miserable, and the important thing is pulling yourself out of it, which admittedly isn't always easy. But I don't believe that anyone is ever beyond happiness - some people end up giving up too soon. So don't give up on being happy. You'll get there. And if you don't love yourself, why don't you? If you can figure out some of the reasons, maybe you'll be able to change them. And sometimes all it can take to start a chain reaction is something as simple as "I don't like my hair color so I'm going to dye it." I know that probably sounds stupid, but I've found that having just a little more confidence helps in a lot of other areas, too. And if you feel like you can't find happiness on your own, you could always see a therapist of some sort. I don't know if you do/ever have/have any desire to, but a lot of schools have them for free and they can really help.

I know what I said probably sounded stupid, but I figured I'd at least respond to let you know that there is at least one person who read what you had to say and felt for you and cares. Sometimes just knowing that can help. I know we haven't talked in pretty much forever, but if you just need to vent or talk or anything, you can feel free to email/IM/Facebook me.

PS-You can totally will still end up with a beautiful girl on your arm. You have plenty of time, don't rush it. Things like that always seem to happen when you're not looking for them.