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so sunday i cried at work. i had screwed up thrice on some very basic, common sense type stuff and was just so mad at myself. and i really love this job and what i'm doing. i really want to show that to everybody by caring enough to not be such a foul up. and then i showed up twenty-five minutes late yesterday. i was focusing so hard on the time that it somehow got shifted from "be there at - " to "leave the house at - ." for the suckage. grrrr.
and monday i got to close by myself because the person who was supposed to close with me called in sick. my sixth day of work. fourth int he salon. first day to close. and i was alone. ....the stress levels.
got a surprise haircut tuesday! i went in with mom to her appointment so i could say hi and look through magazine pics to find a new shape for mine. my hair has been so shapeless for months now. i've been working on growing it back out. but yeah.. i went in and passing mentioned something about needing something done to my hair and she just said " you want to do it today? i can cut your hair while your mom's color is processing." !!!!!! and it looks sooooo fantastic! i just kept looking in all the mirrors (fifteen,by my count) and could not stop playing with it. i lurvs it. even better: she said that because she didn't really take much off, just gave it some shape, that she wasn't going to charge for it. free surprise haircut!!!! squee!!
michael wants to get back with me. he's come off his rebounds and realized how good i was to him. and now the rejection is hitting him like it hit me four months ago. i'm not mad at him anymore. but i've realized that we really are not good for each other. i thought i was over him. maybe i am. what hurts is knowing he's hurting. but i know that stopping the temporary pain will only make things worse for the both of us later on.
closing again tonight. should probably get dressed.
and monday i got to close by myself because the person who was supposed to close with me called in sick. my sixth day of work. fourth int he salon. first day to close. and i was alone. ....the stress levels.
got a surprise haircut tuesday! i went in with mom to her appointment so i could say hi and look through magazine pics to find a new shape for mine. my hair has been so shapeless for months now. i've been working on growing it back out. but yeah.. i went in and passing mentioned something about needing something done to my hair and she just said " you want to do it today? i can cut your hair while your mom's color is processing." !!!!!! and it looks sooooo fantastic! i just kept looking in all the mirrors (fifteen,by my count) and could not stop playing with it. i lurvs it. even better: she said that because she didn't really take much off, just gave it some shape, that she wasn't going to charge for it. free surprise haircut!!!! squee!!
michael wants to get back with me. he's come off his rebounds and realized how good i was to him. and now the rejection is hitting him like it hit me four months ago. i'm not mad at him anymore. but i've realized that we really are not good for each other. i thought i was over him. maybe i am. what hurts is knowing he's hurting. but i know that stopping the temporary pain will only make things worse for the both of us later on.
closing again tonight. should probably get dressed.