victoria. AGAIN.
im starting to get the feeling that amber has totally and completely abandoned this journal. but you know what? that is perfectly okay. because i will enjoy this wonderful livejournal experience my damn SELF, thank you very much.
i went clothes shopping today. i hate doing that. too much walking. too much thinking. too much looking. too much......being. ack. i hate being in a certain place at a certain time for a certain reason. it fucks around with my SPONTANEA.......crap.
where the hell is the dictionary....
...................
forget it.
it fucks around with my spontaneousness.
there.
anyway. i have this weird feeling that i dont need anyone right now. like, if everyone i love were to just leave me right now, i would be perfectly fine.
because for some odd reason, i love myself right now. i have so much self-respect and such a high sense of self-worth right now, that im actually happy. im content with how my life is going right now. im satistfied with where this path is taking me. im loving my life right now. im loving it.
like burgerking.
should i dye my hair? because im bored with my appearance right now. i havent done anything new in a while. i need to put a new hole in my face or change the color of something.
i wore pink the other day. vanessa was quite proud. she had this look on her face that a mother watching her son give his acceptance speech for valedictorian of his class would have. as if ive accomplished something by wearing a color other than black.
i think i spelled valedictorian wrong.
i went clothes shopping today. i hate doing that. too much walking. too much thinking. too much looking. too much......being. ack. i hate being in a certain place at a certain time for a certain reason. it fucks around with my SPONTANEA.......crap.
where the hell is the dictionary....
...................
forget it.
it fucks around with my spontaneousness.
there.
anyway. i have this weird feeling that i dont need anyone right now. like, if everyone i love were to just leave me right now, i would be perfectly fine.
because for some odd reason, i love myself right now. i have so much self-respect and such a high sense of self-worth right now, that im actually happy. im content with how my life is going right now. im satistfied with where this path is taking me. im loving my life right now. im loving it.
like burgerking.
should i dye my hair? because im bored with my appearance right now. i havent done anything new in a while. i need to put a new hole in my face or change the color of something.
i wore pink the other day. vanessa was quite proud. she had this look on her face that a mother watching her son give his acceptance speech for valedictorian of his class would have. as if ive accomplished something by wearing a color other than black.
i think i spelled valedictorian wrong.