It is hard
This, I recognize and confront. I dithered in the office an extra 20 minutes today, knowing the next stop was the pool. But I went, and I kicked, and I abbed, and I swam. And there were three other women in the pool, all at various levels of ability. The skinniest, most conventionally attractive one was in the least good shape and impressed by me (ha! me!). I laughed and told her I'd barely done two laps. And that anything ANY of us did in that pool that day was better than sitting on the couch. The woman in the lane to the other side of me heartily agreed.
I'm pushing my limits in many ways. I know that. And I will "treat" myself with the familiar walk and stretchy bands tomorrow, because I need that, too.
I'm pushing my limits in many ways. I know that. And I will "treat" myself with the familiar walk and stretchy bands tomorrow, because I need that, too.