Surprise book mystery!

Nov 16, 2010 18:03

So had a wee bit of a panic earlier. Hubby got me and the team calmed down. We have a mysterious book pacakge that no one in the system ordered or has any idea about. It's an older book on MPD, and there is a stickie note thanking a Sandra on the back. Our first response was who the heck is Sandra and what has she been doing that is getting her thanked. And why has it been sent to me, my name? So the system freaked because this means a new person in the system but outside the group as it stands rigth now. So we're like does she know she's multi, who is she, what the heck is she doing, how did she get this book, was our credit csards used, etc... etc... So yeah, we freaked.

I know usually when something happens like this I have a feeling that it's meant to be or correct. But there was no feelings in relation to this book. So we're freaking. We finally calmed down and stopped being scared because after the freakout everyone got really scared and I felt totally spun out and outta control. I went on facebook and our online communities and asked around if someone sent this as a gift, maybe the stickie was accidentally left on it, etc.... We haven't heard anything back yet, so we're all trying to remain calm and handle it as and when.

For now, we have a new book/gift :)O So we're trying to see the positive in it all. The book, though older, looks like it will be really good so I am excited to read it. I need to finish my couples healing trauma book first though. I have a huge shelf of books still to read, but this is ging to be one of the top ones I read soon.

Would be nice to get some leisure ones started too so not just reading heavy stuff all the time. I haven't read a fun one that I could get into since the complete Twilight series ones months ago before the 3rd move, Eclipse, came out. So think it's long over due to get a fun one started to go back and fourth to. tleast I read fast! :)

So 'll see what happens about this new book - "Multiple Personality Disorder from the inside out". The more I think about it, I think it's a gift from a good friend. We'll see though :)
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So hubby and I talked last night when he came back from his group meeting. He had a big a-ha moment yesterday and talked to the counsellor after the group finished about these increasing episodes of "zoning out ". He's shutting down. He's too over taxed and thus is shutting down because he can't handle or do anything more. He's just dead. So he came home and explained this and we both kinda said, "Oh shit" in unison.

The counsellor told him that first thing, he has to not take on any more new projects. He needs to do a lot more self care and take it easier on himself. So he's got a plan to increase in the exercise and self care areas. He's doing wii and walking the dog further daily. Once I am over this horrible flu I will be joining him as well.

So we're going to talk to the pdoc tomorrow about how burnt out he is and see what the pdoc can also offer. I have been so worried about him for months because I saw that he is so burnt out. I am not sure how to help him apart from listening, trying not to put more on him. The team has also been worried but our tactic of handling this is to poke him and try to get him to focus on one thing at a time, but that isn't working the way we do it. So we need to find other ways. And we need to get me back up and running so that I can pick up more slack again now that I am doing overall, pretty darn well.

So we'll see what the pdoc has to say. I am also going to do some research on recooping from burnt out and present my findings to hubby and see what we can work out together. We'll make it through this too, together.

And as for our bit of a spat before he left, we worked that out too at the same time. Him explaining what was happening and stuff. So we're fine again. I felt bad for how I snapped out. I was mad because I felt better on Sunday and here I was slammed by another wave of this flu on Monday. So I kinda lashed out and lost it a bit. So when he came home I was already in the let's work it out mode. So i was glad when he came down and laid stuff out to me and I just listened. It was good. So, I am glad we're not fighting or anything now because I hate getting like that. And he understood my sick frustration because he had it too with this flu. SO it helped that he got that too. So that helped. So yay us! :)
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I slept weird last night. A lot of waking up and rolling around. So didn't sleep the greatest. I am hoping that sleeping in late helped, though i don't feel so great still tiredness wise.

Today is a new day and it's also date night. I am still to weak and sick to go out anywhere (no idea how I am going to make it to the pdoc tomorrow ugh!) So we're going to play some games and watch some movies. And I think hubby is making something special for dinner so i'm looking forward to spending some fun time together. Lord knows we need so us time because shit really is hitting the fan and burrying us of late.

Think i'm also going to have a shower later on because I smell. Darn flu making me all feverish and bleh.
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Anyhoo think that's it for the moment.
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