[ Written.]
Well, this is a pleasant surprise. Although writing isn't exactly my strong point, it's better than talking right now.. Perhaps I'll keep a journal.
In any case.. I could really use some cigarettes right now. Any kind, really. Even drugs.. alcohol? Anything to take my mind of C occupy myself right now. I'm getting really.. damn bored. Stressed. Maybe I should go for a walk.. but it's pretty hard to lose yourself in a place you can't escape from. It's suffocating. Like a cage.
I miss the city. I miss the cheesy cafe's and coffee shops with waitresses in maid outfits. The pickpockets, the perverts, the gossips. I miss going to the bar with Soren and Mik and getting drunk out of mind and forgetting what happened the next morning when I wake up in one of their beds, only to have Soren retell the tale with that stupid grin of his..
I don't want to be here.. I'll go crazy. It's a pity we can't die.. suicide would seem like a luxury. I want to live again, see the city lights, smell the gasoline while out on the street, walk through the park late at night and share a cig with a stranger. Just one last time.
..But I guess I should worry more about the problems at hand..
..Cy, is it okay to apologize now?
In any case.. I could really use some cigarettes right now. Any kind, really. Even drugs.. alcohol? Anything to take my mind of C occupy myself right now. I'm getting really.. damn bored. Stressed. Maybe I should go for a walk.. but it's pretty hard to lose yourself in a place you can't escape from. It's suffocating. Like a cage.
I miss the city. I miss the cheesy cafe's and coffee shops with waitresses in maid outfits. The pickpockets, the perverts, the gossips. I miss going to the bar with Soren and Mik and getting drunk out of mind and forgetting what happened the next morning when I wake up in one of their beds, only to have Soren retell the tale with that stupid grin of his..
I don't want to be here.. I'll go crazy. It's a pity we can't die.. suicide would seem like a luxury. I want to live again, see the city lights, smell the gasoline while out on the street, walk through the park late at night and share a cig with a stranger. Just one last time.
..But I guess I should worry more about the problems at hand..
..Cy, is it okay to apologize now?