What am I doing here?
So, it has been awhile since I have used my livejournal for anything meaningful. Perhaps I should again.
Well, if you haven't heard from me in awhile, it is because I have been massively busy. I finally finished my finals, and I am glad to have one more semester over, although I cannot believe one year has gone by already. It's a little scary. The sooner the year ends, the sooner next year starts.
I have been very confused lately. It seems that things I once knew, I now question on a regular basis. And things that I was always okay with not knowing, I now have the desire to figure out. Is this some sort of twisted right of passage the fates have designed for us? Is there a reason I can no longer let go the things I don't know? What am I supposed to be doing? Am I going about this college and future thing all wrong?
Awhile ago, I wrote about "living like you were dying" and making everymoment count. It was my resolution, if you will. I have to admit. I have not kept it. To a point, I have kept it. I am more blunt and bold than I once was. I think those of you who knew me when I was shy would be much surprised. On the other hand, there is much I have kept in the reserves in the back of my mind. There is so much I want to do, so much I want to say, so much too see. Is this always going to have to be a conscious effort on my part? Is it the same if I have to work so hard at it?
Well, if you haven't heard from me in awhile, it is because I have been massively busy. I finally finished my finals, and I am glad to have one more semester over, although I cannot believe one year has gone by already. It's a little scary. The sooner the year ends, the sooner next year starts.
I have been very confused lately. It seems that things I once knew, I now question on a regular basis. And things that I was always okay with not knowing, I now have the desire to figure out. Is this some sort of twisted right of passage the fates have designed for us? Is there a reason I can no longer let go the things I don't know? What am I supposed to be doing? Am I going about this college and future thing all wrong?
Awhile ago, I wrote about "living like you were dying" and making everymoment count. It was my resolution, if you will. I have to admit. I have not kept it. To a point, I have kept it. I am more blunt and bold than I once was. I think those of you who knew me when I was shy would be much surprised. On the other hand, there is much I have kept in the reserves in the back of my mind. There is so much I want to do, so much I want to say, so much too see. Is this always going to have to be a conscious effort on my part? Is it the same if I have to work so hard at it?