Ugh

[lavieboheme123]

I wish i cared about myself enough to really take care of me. I'm always eating really shitty foods and i never exercise. I smoked a couple times recently which is terrible for my voice and lung capacity and really affects how i sing. I keep putting other people's needs before my own. I'm shy about my voice when i should just let it fly. I can easily sing up to a b flat when i don't know thats the note i'm singing, but the second tim starts playing the piano i just tighten up my throat and my voice is strangled. I want to be so much better in every way. I want to be forgiving and sweet to everyone while still taking care of my own needs. I want to be poised and mysterious while still being open and honest. I just want to be better.

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