School, moving, and other events
I am almost halfway through my second semester of senior year at St. Joesph's University. I have a midterm tomorrow and I haven't done a damn thing to get ready for it even though i really enjoy the class. My post-modern literature course is frustrating because I just can't wrap my head around Faulkner's The Sound and the Fury or Woolf's Mrs. Dalloway. These books are written in a style that is so distracting that I can't even get into the content because I am just trying to figure out what the fuck is going on. I am NOT used to these kinds of problems. My linguistics course is every bit as baffling, but to be fair, I need to put more effort into it than I have been, and that should get me up to speed.
I have really enjoyed this school. I never would've went there if they hadn't offered me a scholarship, and I still had some misgivings because it was a Jesuit university. It turns out that that was a good thing because I learned a fair bit about religion, which I have always been suspicious of, and they did it without placing a slant on it or making any apologies for it. The other students were cool with me, and I have a much higher opinion of the following generation than I previously had because of them. Fuck, they're far more together in their late teens/early twenties than I was in my late twenties.
I'm going to miss it. It's been a great opportunity for me, and in spite of the activeness of my eating disorder, it's been a great time in my life.
I am moving to Florida in January, and i don't want to go. I have a great job opportunity there that I just can't match here or anywhere else. A job is not reason enough to move no matter how good it may be, but I feel that my time here is about done. Relationships in Philadelphia are rough, for some reason the sexes here are deeply suspicious of each other, and the deepness of it here defies reason. When everything is predicated on suspicion, fear, and paranoia, nothing good can come of it. I always believed that by being the best person i could be, that could be overcome, but men and women in Philadelphia are just miserable and seem more interested in what they can get from a relationship instead of what they can contribute. Maybe it's that way everywhere and I just need to grow up and get jaded, but I really hope not. If that's the case, I think I'd be happier alone. In any case, it's hard for me to find someone I'm interested in, and it doesn't mean they'd be interested in me in turn, so I end up being single for years at a stretch. The people I've met in Florida are a lot warmer and less jaded which is nice, but then again, so is everybody that I don't know well : p
If I move to Florida, I will have to buy a car. Fuck, I hate cars. I haven't had to own one for years now, and I haven't missed it.
I will miss geography, geology, Fall, the Philadelphia Museum of Art, the Kimmel Center (and only a block away, too!), First Fridays in Old City, the history, NYC, and my friends. I will miss a city that is sooooo Democrat that even though the rest of the state is Republican, Philly trumps that shit in elections. I will also miss the most extensive parks system of any city on the east Coast, and perhaps even the nation. You can't argue with hundreds of miles of bicycle roads, hills, and trails, streams, and preserves. This really is a green city.
I will not miss asshole drivers, asshole pedestrians, psychotic homeless people, crackheads, the sheer quantity of people, the 7% city wage tax, and the summer stench that occasionally creeps through this town. I will not miss police that don't.
Halloween is coming up. I wonder what I'll do for that. I haven't done anything for a couple of years, and I think that this year that should change. I'll get dressed up and go to a party and socialize. If none of my friends are having a party, I'll have to find one and crash it.
I have really enjoyed this school. I never would've went there if they hadn't offered me a scholarship, and I still had some misgivings because it was a Jesuit university. It turns out that that was a good thing because I learned a fair bit about religion, which I have always been suspicious of, and they did it without placing a slant on it or making any apologies for it. The other students were cool with me, and I have a much higher opinion of the following generation than I previously had because of them. Fuck, they're far more together in their late teens/early twenties than I was in my late twenties.
I'm going to miss it. It's been a great opportunity for me, and in spite of the activeness of my eating disorder, it's been a great time in my life.
I am moving to Florida in January, and i don't want to go. I have a great job opportunity there that I just can't match here or anywhere else. A job is not reason enough to move no matter how good it may be, but I feel that my time here is about done. Relationships in Philadelphia are rough, for some reason the sexes here are deeply suspicious of each other, and the deepness of it here defies reason. When everything is predicated on suspicion, fear, and paranoia, nothing good can come of it. I always believed that by being the best person i could be, that could be overcome, but men and women in Philadelphia are just miserable and seem more interested in what they can get from a relationship instead of what they can contribute. Maybe it's that way everywhere and I just need to grow up and get jaded, but I really hope not. If that's the case, I think I'd be happier alone. In any case, it's hard for me to find someone I'm interested in, and it doesn't mean they'd be interested in me in turn, so I end up being single for years at a stretch. The people I've met in Florida are a lot warmer and less jaded which is nice, but then again, so is everybody that I don't know well : p
If I move to Florida, I will have to buy a car. Fuck, I hate cars. I haven't had to own one for years now, and I haven't missed it.
I will miss geography, geology, Fall, the Philadelphia Museum of Art, the Kimmel Center (and only a block away, too!), First Fridays in Old City, the history, NYC, and my friends. I will miss a city that is sooooo Democrat that even though the rest of the state is Republican, Philly trumps that shit in elections. I will also miss the most extensive parks system of any city on the east Coast, and perhaps even the nation. You can't argue with hundreds of miles of bicycle roads, hills, and trails, streams, and preserves. This really is a green city.
I will not miss asshole drivers, asshole pedestrians, psychotic homeless people, crackheads, the sheer quantity of people, the 7% city wage tax, and the summer stench that occasionally creeps through this town. I will not miss police that don't.
Halloween is coming up. I wonder what I'll do for that. I haven't done anything for a couple of years, and I think that this year that should change. I'll get dressed up and go to a party and socialize. If none of my friends are having a party, I'll have to find one and crash it.