Digging Shiva
I'm still digging a ginormous hole in the ground in my backyard.
Moo is still in the freezer at the vet, as well as a paw print. I've just been digging for 30 min to one hour a day (when it isn't raining) so I don't pull out my back and because I usually can't get myself outside until there's only that much daylight left. I only have a few inches left, but I think I'm going to have to dig it a couple of feet wider to to get in and reach those inches so I don't fall in the hole again. It is solid clay down there. And roots, very far traveling roots. And an occasional rock. Where the hell is my minyan when you need them?
Grieving is weird. Tuxie was clinging to me as much as I was clinging to him last week--I am a clingy cat friend at most times--and my cousin sent me a beautiful blanket that Tuxie loved huddling under with me for a couple of nights, but I think he's moved on, or adjusted to the cooler temps in here since I turned the thermostat down after Moo died--I like it cooler at night. I haven't cried much. I've been thinking about her and the deaths of all my other beloved cat family members, except Tuxie, because he's alive--well, a little in that I'm thinking about having to dig him a ginormous hole one day and that maybe cremation isn't such a bad idea now.
I've been wondering if it's best to thaw Moo's body before burial and whether it will be too stiff to curl into the round cat-head-shaped-cardboard scratchy-box she loved which I'd like to bury her in. I wasn't planning to put her in a box, but most of the internet seems to be in agreement that You should bury Your Cat in a cardboard box--I suspect their cats told them this is how it should be done, because Cardboard!Box!--and who am I to break with this wisdom? If I can't curl the body, then I will bury it in a chewy.com box or a holiday box with a fibrous red lid, which might be good for seeing where the burial site starts if the tree dies and I need to dig the root ball out and put in another, since the lid looks less biodegradable than the rest of the box--I want biodegradable--I want her to become nutrients in the ground and not preserved in a coffin. That's how I want to go, too--and yay, I won't have to dig that huge damned hole--it'll be someone else's problem! Hey, it's something about death to look forward to! *Tolkien's Elves give me the thumbs up and sigh* So, more digging and hopefully I can bring her home before week's end.
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Moo is still in the freezer at the vet, as well as a paw print. I've just been digging for 30 min to one hour a day (when it isn't raining) so I don't pull out my back and because I usually can't get myself outside until there's only that much daylight left. I only have a few inches left, but I think I'm going to have to dig it a couple of feet wider to to get in and reach those inches so I don't fall in the hole again. It is solid clay down there. And roots, very far traveling roots. And an occasional rock. Where the hell is my minyan when you need them?
Grieving is weird. Tuxie was clinging to me as much as I was clinging to him last week--I am a clingy cat friend at most times--and my cousin sent me a beautiful blanket that Tuxie loved huddling under with me for a couple of nights, but I think he's moved on, or adjusted to the cooler temps in here since I turned the thermostat down after Moo died--I like it cooler at night. I haven't cried much. I've been thinking about her and the deaths of all my other beloved cat family members, except Tuxie, because he's alive--well, a little in that I'm thinking about having to dig him a ginormous hole one day and that maybe cremation isn't such a bad idea now.
I've been wondering if it's best to thaw Moo's body before burial and whether it will be too stiff to curl into the round cat-head-shaped-cardboard scratchy-box she loved which I'd like to bury her in. I wasn't planning to put her in a box, but most of the internet seems to be in agreement that You should bury Your Cat in a cardboard box--I suspect their cats told them this is how it should be done, because Cardboard!Box!--and who am I to break with this wisdom? If I can't curl the body, then I will bury it in a chewy.com box or a holiday box with a fibrous red lid, which might be good for seeing where the burial site starts if the tree dies and I need to dig the root ball out and put in another, since the lid looks less biodegradable than the rest of the box--I want biodegradable--I want her to become nutrients in the ground and not preserved in a coffin. That's how I want to go, too--and yay, I won't have to dig that huge damned hole--it'll be someone else's problem! Hey, it's something about death to look forward to! *Tolkien's Elves give me the thumbs up and sigh* So, more digging and hopefully I can bring her home before week's end.
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