Time is short
Tests came back and Moo is in last stages of kidney failure. I took her in today for a shot of fluids and an anti-nausea drug (cerenia), but she's very weak. The doc said I could take her to the emergency clinic and they could keep her for a few days and pump her with fluids and meds and maybe there'd be a miracle, but she's more likely to be shortly back in kidney failure than not if we did, and I don't want to put her through the terrible trauma of it with such a bad prognosis. Best advice is put her down or keep her as long as she purrs and eats as her systems slowly shut down, and they said they'd not let me prolong it if I failed at the letting go test when the time came. At first I was going to take her in for the last time this evening since she didn't eat yesterday, but I found something she ate with gusto, so I cancelled with relief and decided we'll take it day by day.
I didn't have more of that food (Delectables Pate Tuna--it's new) and couldn't find more of it today in Petsmart or the groceries around here and didn't remember where I found it, and she didn't eat anything I offered her this evening, but she still purrs when I carry her and she's purring against me right now and otherwise resting peacefully--thank gods she's no longer spasming when she purrs. Her coat is still beautifully full and soft like bunny fur.
Mooshka can walk, but very badly, and I'm trying to anticipate her wants for the litter box and carrying her, as well as carrying water and food to her. She did go down the stairs last night while I was sleeping and can still jump on the sofa and futon because she's a determined little woozle, but she walks like she's got very bad neuropathy and is practically crawling, and it's not going to get better. She has loved being carried from when I first met her and that's what we'll do. Yesterday, the Dr gave her a buprenorphine, and I was leary because it has always strung her out after surgery and dentals and talked him into a light dose, but it still left her sleeping fitfully and I think more uncomfortable with the restlessness, so no more of that. Today at least she is sleeping deeper and more peacefully.
So I'll see how she does tomorrow. Research says I can find that food only at Walmart, so I'll take a fast trip there and hope she eats again and the rest of the day I'm with her, then take her in for fluids and cerenia in the evening if she hasn't worsened and we need to euthanize then. Otherwise, we take it day by day, but they're numbered now.
One of the heated beds I ordered for her came today, so I've set it up on her side of the bed (by her step stool) and see what she thinks of it when she tires of sleeping in my arms. I'm glad it came in time. Thank you all for the good wishes--they help a lot. Please wish her appetite and comfortable rest, and me the calmness to be all she needs to keep her purring and make her last days comfortable ones.
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I didn't have more of that food (Delectables Pate Tuna--it's new) and couldn't find more of it today in Petsmart or the groceries around here and didn't remember where I found it, and she didn't eat anything I offered her this evening, but she still purrs when I carry her and she's purring against me right now and otherwise resting peacefully--thank gods she's no longer spasming when she purrs. Her coat is still beautifully full and soft like bunny fur.
Mooshka can walk, but very badly, and I'm trying to anticipate her wants for the litter box and carrying her, as well as carrying water and food to her. She did go down the stairs last night while I was sleeping and can still jump on the sofa and futon because she's a determined little woozle, but she walks like she's got very bad neuropathy and is practically crawling, and it's not going to get better. She has loved being carried from when I first met her and that's what we'll do. Yesterday, the Dr gave her a buprenorphine, and I was leary because it has always strung her out after surgery and dentals and talked him into a light dose, but it still left her sleeping fitfully and I think more uncomfortable with the restlessness, so no more of that. Today at least she is sleeping deeper and more peacefully.
So I'll see how she does tomorrow. Research says I can find that food only at Walmart, so I'll take a fast trip there and hope she eats again and the rest of the day I'm with her, then take her in for fluids and cerenia in the evening if she hasn't worsened and we need to euthanize then. Otherwise, we take it day by day, but they're numbered now.
One of the heated beds I ordered for her came today, so I've set it up on her side of the bed (by her step stool) and see what she thinks of it when she tires of sleeping in my arms. I'm glad it came in time. Thank you all for the good wishes--they help a lot. Please wish her appetite and comfortable rest, and me the calmness to be all she needs to keep her purring and make her last days comfortable ones.
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