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Wow, this is really strange. I have no initiative of going online or even updating. There were a number of occasions I find myself wanting to update, sharing something - anything, but my mind immediately goes blank once I'm logged in. Peculiar? Maybe. I don't know what is going on anymore and very disconnected with my life, my friends, my family, just almost everything. The reason I started this journal was to record down things in my life, thinking it was much easier to type than have it written on paper. It's not going anywhere. So, let's try again.
I've been practicing smiling lately. It's very tiring. Smiling is a simple thing to do, yet, I still find trouble in doing it. When people go, why don't you smile more? I automatically put on a forced smile to pleased them. Why can't it come more naturally? Sometimes, I find myself going "Heheh" just to humor the people around me.
Where has the time gone? Argh, I hate myself for wasting such a beautiful day today. :( That's what you get for for staying up till 4 a.m. in the morning while chatting nonsense such as Disney songs, the basketball game last night, Montreal, and a bunch of other nonsense. Alright, several more rounds of practice and I'll head out to the BBQ.
This entry took me an hour to write.
I hope everyone is doing well. I'll start reading my flist soon and I WILL pick up my life.
I've been practicing smiling lately. It's very tiring. Smiling is a simple thing to do, yet, I still find trouble in doing it. When people go, why don't you smile more? I automatically put on a forced smile to pleased them. Why can't it come more naturally? Sometimes, I find myself going "Heheh" just to humor the people around me.
Where has the time gone? Argh, I hate myself for wasting such a beautiful day today. :( That's what you get for for staying up till 4 a.m. in the morning while chatting nonsense such as Disney songs, the basketball game last night, Montreal, and a bunch of other nonsense. Alright, several more rounds of practice and I'll head out to the BBQ.
This entry took me an hour to write.
I hope everyone is doing well. I'll start reading my flist soon and I WILL pick up my life.