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so it's been a while since i've updated this thing. I'd like to think it's just because I've been so busy, but I don't think that's the only reason. I tend to look back on past entries and realize how ridiculous and passive aggressive and whiny I sound...I'd rather not subject others to that, but people keep telling me that I should update more often, so we'll see how this goes....
winter quarter has come and gone a bit faster than I expected. one quarter left. panic mode is starting to set in. I have about 3 months to find a job and place to live if i want to try and avoid moving back home--which I do for oh so many reasons.
a few months ago a friend told me that I had been in his dream recently. he said he was walking down the street and saw me. I was across the street, walking the other way. he tried to get my attention but i was walking away too quickly. (something like that) for some reason that has haunted me ever since hearing it. Over the past quarter, it seems like whenever I go out, someone says 'kaeleen! i haven't seen you in a long time!' or something to that effect. am i really that busy? or have I just become a hermit in my little apartment? I hate the idea that I might be too busy or appear to busy for my friends. it's true that i overcommit, but there's gotta be time somewhere...
so lately i've been feelin like always a bridesmaid never a bride...how is it that after 4 years of college I haven't had a relationship!? I mean, I guess I know to some extent....but really, what's the deal?! it's not that i don't enjoy hearing about friend's latest crushes, relationships and drama, but it gets a little depressing when i stop and think about the absence of that in my life. I have awesome friends, so it's not like i'm lonely, but sometimes....i dunno. it just seems like it really SHOULDN'T be hard to meet someone. am I too picky? too closed? to socially awkward? probably. maybe i should work on that. clearly it's not workin for me. i have some awesome relationships in my life, how is it that they haven't gone in that direction? who knows?! anyway....enough of that.
So i've been cooking a lot lately--trying to get back into eating healthy food. soooo if anyone's ever hungry, you know who to call;) ok..enough of this updating, I should get back to work....yes, it is spring break and i have work...
winter quarter has come and gone a bit faster than I expected. one quarter left. panic mode is starting to set in. I have about 3 months to find a job and place to live if i want to try and avoid moving back home--which I do for oh so many reasons.
a few months ago a friend told me that I had been in his dream recently. he said he was walking down the street and saw me. I was across the street, walking the other way. he tried to get my attention but i was walking away too quickly. (something like that) for some reason that has haunted me ever since hearing it. Over the past quarter, it seems like whenever I go out, someone says 'kaeleen! i haven't seen you in a long time!' or something to that effect. am i really that busy? or have I just become a hermit in my little apartment? I hate the idea that I might be too busy or appear to busy for my friends. it's true that i overcommit, but there's gotta be time somewhere...
so lately i've been feelin like always a bridesmaid never a bride...how is it that after 4 years of college I haven't had a relationship!? I mean, I guess I know to some extent....but really, what's the deal?! it's not that i don't enjoy hearing about friend's latest crushes, relationships and drama, but it gets a little depressing when i stop and think about the absence of that in my life. I have awesome friends, so it's not like i'm lonely, but sometimes....i dunno. it just seems like it really SHOULDN'T be hard to meet someone. am I too picky? too closed? to socially awkward? probably. maybe i should work on that. clearly it's not workin for me. i have some awesome relationships in my life, how is it that they haven't gone in that direction? who knows?! anyway....enough of that.
So i've been cooking a lot lately--trying to get back into eating healthy food. soooo if anyone's ever hungry, you know who to call;) ok..enough of this updating, I should get back to work....yes, it is spring break and i have work...