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alright. so i'm updating this thing because i'm far too awake and it's just been one of those nights....ok, where to begin...fall quarter is over...guess that feels good. as usual, it flew by...winter break is here and i can't say that i'm excited...i guess it'll be good in the sense that i'll have a break from everything..time to think...as if i don't already to enough of that! there's also a lot that i'm going to miss, even though it's only a few weeks. i'll miss my apartment, the people i've been spending time with who will soon be far away....i'm not exactly excited to spend time with my family, and i haven't even started christmas shopping....oddly enough, i feel more stress now that the quarter has ended than i did will it was still in session....
so now, in the spirit of so many of my journal entries (that i usually look back upon and cringe) i'm going to ramble....so lately i've been thinking a lot about attraction...it's a funny thing isn't it? so many factors...for example, how can one be so attracted so someone's personality, want to spend tons of time w/ them, but not really feel the sexual tension or what carrie from sex and the city likes to call the 'zsa zsa zsu'? can it be created or it is either there or not--no inbetween? on another note, i often feel like i'm hinder/limit myself by not projecting the way i feel...or think i feel..want to feel? i dunno....i just feel like if i were to take a step outside of myself, i'd look in and be like, what the fuck are you doin!? anyway...i dunno....anyway, enough of this....i'll update later when i feel less melancholy...
so now, in the spirit of so many of my journal entries (that i usually look back upon and cringe) i'm going to ramble....so lately i've been thinking a lot about attraction...it's a funny thing isn't it? so many factors...for example, how can one be so attracted so someone's personality, want to spend tons of time w/ them, but not really feel the sexual tension or what carrie from sex and the city likes to call the 'zsa zsa zsu'? can it be created or it is either there or not--no inbetween? on another note, i often feel like i'm hinder/limit myself by not projecting the way i feel...or think i feel..want to feel? i dunno....i just feel like if i were to take a step outside of myself, i'd look in and be like, what the fuck are you doin!? anyway...i dunno....anyway, enough of this....i'll update later when i feel less melancholy...