Fiction is the truth inside the lie
I felt really empty 2 days ago.... like i had no emotion left inside of me... & i cried like all day... & i didn't get to talk to Josh... so it was even worse... then yesterday Missy & Michael called me & were like you wanna go to DCA championships with us... so i was like sure... cleaned my room... got dressed... left with Missy, Michael & Kristen.... got there seen Benton, Ray, Kasey, Aigy, Vikki, Johnny, Hack, Tony & Taryn... i also seen Dennis & Tyler... you could've imagined the excitment.... *rolls eyes*.... Empire Statesmen won DCA championships... Taryn got 3rd & Tony got 2nd... so it's pretty good... after the show we went & seen all of our friends that preformed... i seen Texy!!! YAY!!!...i missed him so0o0o0o much.. he still calls me Hollywood... i was like Texy, they changed my nickname... & he was like you'll always be hollywood... cause' Craig doved me Alanis... cause' he says that i look like Alanis Morissette... & Anthony started calling me Gilligan cause' i was always wearing Texy's hat... lol.. & it's a white bucket one... yea... so after all that me, missy, michael, kristen & benton went over to the Bushwackers hotel... & we hung out with them... hung out in Vikki & Aigy's room with Kasey, Johnny & a whole shit load of people & i can only remember the one kids name being Josh... lol... wonder why... yea so then Missy drove home... & we got to Michael's house at like 6:30 in the morning... went to sleep woke up around 12-1 pm... Michael drove me home... i came online.. talked to my Joshie... i love talking to him... even if it about depressing things sometimes... & then i read his journal... & he was talking about having sex with people or something like that... & i don't know what's going on... but i feel really vulnerable... i don't want him to be cheating on me because i love him to death... & if he is cheating on me.. then he never really did love me... you don't cheat on people that you love... because if you loved them as much as you say you do... you wouldn't do something to hurt them like that... i think i need to go lie down... i have school tomorrow.... <3 you Josh... please don't be cheating on me.. i'd die... xoxoxoxoxo