24/2/2003
Wards were placed on my flat last night.
There's a password.
I didn't give it to
He won't need it anywa
It's nice to know the things I have, and there's not many, won't be stolen anytime soon.
puts shoes under bed
Barnabus is going with my article tomorrow. He tried to talk me out of it. Said it wouldn't do very well for my reputation.
What the hell exchange rates would have to do with my reputation is beyond me.
I charmed him into a front page spot. Received a bit extra for that. This will pay to have the electricity turned on. I think I might miss the candles though. They remind me
His mum
There's been rumors going around at work. I try not to listen to them. Listening and spreading rumors didn't help him in school, and it sure as hell won't help me now.
Daniel's wife is pregnant. Everyone's ecstatic. Maybe I'm being selfish, hating him a little because he's got everything together. You're not supposed to wish ill on your family, and it's not that I wish ill, per se... it just hurts to know that he's got everything he said he'd get. The wife. The house. The soon to be 2.5 children. I have ashes in an urn in my mum's attic and a flat with a bed as the only furniture.
Ashes.
ashesashesashes
I hate that word. I hate what it signifies. I know my mum doesn't understand why I can't do anything with them yet. She doesn't know. I don't want her to. She'd worry. I don't want her to worry, but I have to do something with them. the river?
I'll wait. It'll come to me when things aren't so messed up.
Supper next Friday with everyone. She'll be glowing. I'll be glowering. Good dinner for all, I think.
There's a password.
I didn't give it to
He won't need it anywa
It's nice to know the things I have, and there's not many, won't be stolen anytime soon.
puts shoes under bed
Barnabus is going with my article tomorrow. He tried to talk me out of it. Said it wouldn't do very well for my reputation.
What the hell exchange rates would have to do with my reputation is beyond me.
I charmed him into a front page spot. Received a bit extra for that. This will pay to have the electricity turned on. I think I might miss the candles though. They remind me
His mum
There's been rumors going around at work. I try not to listen to them. Listening and spreading rumors didn't help him in school, and it sure as hell won't help me now.
Daniel's wife is pregnant. Everyone's ecstatic. Maybe I'm being selfish, hating him a little because he's got everything together. You're not supposed to wish ill on your family, and it's not that I wish ill, per se... it just hurts to know that he's got everything he said he'd get. The wife. The house. The soon to be 2.5 children. I have ashes in an urn in my mum's attic and a flat with a bed as the only furniture.
Ashes.
ashesashesashes
I hate that word. I hate what it signifies. I know my mum doesn't understand why I can't do anything with them yet. She doesn't know. I don't want her to. She'd worry. I don't want her to worry, but I have to do something with them. the river?
I'll wait. It'll come to me when things aren't so messed up.
Supper next Friday with everyone. She'll be glowing. I'll be glowering. Good dinner for all, I think.