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[lavender315]

i cant sleep thinking about him. i cant help but think about that kiss. how he cupped my face in his hands, lifted my face to his and.stole that kiss. literally caught me off guard, but even if he.told.me i would not have been be prepared for it. i wouldve looked down. bit my nails, changed the subject and would avoid his eyes. i remember hearing him sigh. like he had wanted to.do it for so long. i cant escape thos scene. we smiled at each other as the morning continued. i had to tell everyone. my heart screamed i.love him! my brain screamed be careful. dont fall, i keep.catching myself slipping and falling into.a trap. he is my hunter. analyzing my moves...baiting me until.he traps me and keeps me. making it harder to leave when i want to. when i want to run because when it comes to being faithful.and when it comes to being commited, i always fail. i tell him i would stop it all for the right guy, all of it he.asked. for the right one, yes, i tell him. i am so uncertain of this. i want to go with the flow but i cant help but fight against the current and try and figure him out or figure this out. why did you have to kiss me. i was fine, being alone. sad and holed in, i.was dealing. and now i am open again. it's being vulnerable and hoping i dont get hurt again. hoping he doesn't disappoibt me. if we were smart, we would stop now, for the sake of my heart. because anymore broken, would be harder this time to piece it together. so let this go, we were meant to be in a dream world.

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