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sometimes i wonder what the hell i'm thinking. i exert so much energy trying to find someone reliable, and as soon as i finally get that...i'm bored with it. i can see him. he is typing stuff. we are in the library. maybe there is just too much unsureness because of the way the whole thing started. that does make me feel as if i should do nothing to please him, i should only tease him. on the other hand. damn. as soon as i become resolute to not do anything more, then...i kind of want to. and sometimes i decide one thing; basically i change my mind on the issue quite often.
some good reasons that i could tell him...we both love other people. oh, damn, i broke. i changed all of my frames to him. i didn't mean to, hah. there are...lets say 4...other people that i have crushes on. probably only one that i'm going to pursue. maybe i'll hold off until i see how that goes. if he shows no interest than maybe i should stick with the current one. what a stratigic person am i? why cannot i just be satisfied and do my school work? probably because i know that he is definitly not the one, and i want to find that person. okay, bye