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Finding my horse laying on the ground, seemingly having trouble breathing, and not getting up when I asked her to scared me. I thought that she had broken her leg or something. I came back a moment later to find her standing, and fine.
What is important in life? Am I ignoring who I really love for a little game of lips and legs with someone I hardly know?
I almost feel that I should tell Travis that I'd like to end things and completely cut off communication between us. Of course, I won't do this. I'm scared to ask him what he thinks of us now. I don't want to be restricted. Although, if I don't ask, I run the risk of hurting him and seeming like an imoral person.
On sunday night I snapped at Joel. He took things a little too far. I got right up in his face, called him some dirty things, turned sharply, and walked away. It felt good. I think that was the first time I had done something like that.
I wonder if tomorrow night will be the night...?
What is important in life? Am I ignoring who I really love for a little game of lips and legs with someone I hardly know?
I almost feel that I should tell Travis that I'd like to end things and completely cut off communication between us. Of course, I won't do this. I'm scared to ask him what he thinks of us now. I don't want to be restricted. Although, if I don't ask, I run the risk of hurting him and seeming like an imoral person.
On sunday night I snapped at Joel. He took things a little too far. I got right up in his face, called him some dirty things, turned sharply, and walked away. It felt good. I think that was the first time I had done something like that.
I wonder if tomorrow night will be the night...?