*CENSORED* (I watch too much Sopranos)
I keep getting disappointed or something with life. Why can't I get up the nerve to say how I really feel? Why can't I have my way? Why does anyone else even fucking matter? I spend too much time worrying about other people and what they think. I'm left an empty shell, emotionless.
Okay well maybe I'm stretching things. But seriously, why can't I say what's on my mind? I have this fear of everything. I get anxiety over the smallest things. Ie, something stupid I said, did, etc. It doesn't even fucking matter and yet I get anxious about it. I get all cold sweatish (not really appealing at all). I just can't get over it. I feel retarded sometimes. Even on msn! When I'm talking to a guy I like, I always cringe at what I say, in fear that it sounds stupid and that the guy won't like me because of one little thing! Ahhhhhhh. And why does the guy I like have to come to me for advice about some other girl? Fucking hell...
Okay well maybe I'm stretching things. But seriously, why can't I say what's on my mind? I have this fear of everything. I get anxiety over the smallest things. Ie, something stupid I said, did, etc. It doesn't even fucking matter and yet I get anxious about it. I get all cold sweatish (not really appealing at all). I just can't get over it. I feel retarded sometimes. Even on msn! When I'm talking to a guy I like, I always cringe at what I say, in fear that it sounds stupid and that the guy won't like me because of one little thing! Ahhhhhhh. And why does the guy I like have to come to me for advice about some other girl? Fucking hell...