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Yesturday was rubbish, I cant actualy rmeber what I did. Just felt ill most of the day andslept alot. naturaly I didn;t go to collehe. how rubbish am I.
Then in the evening I had a conversation with sam and sarah..
aparently i don't make the effort to ...iduno..be their friend.
whatever.they're so hypcritical..I don't see them making an effort, all I see is them saying shit about me,to me and behind my back for the last few months, and not being there for me when i've needed them. to me that's not very friendshiplike.
and yes of course thigns have changed between us, I do't go to therir school anymore, and I don't live near them..so of course I'll see them less. But tomblame it all on me is abit harsh, when they;re not even makin the ewffort themselve[ i apologise for spelling mistakes, but my computer is being rubbish and im typing too fast and it wont show what im writing, as im writing it hehe]
and yea
But i couldnt be bothered to argue with them..
i've kinda had enough.
Im never good enough for them.
and it does my head in.
at least i cna admit my faults, and accept responsibilty for them, which is one of the things i think they incapable of doing..,
take for example, sarah and mike on saturday.
sarah was saying how much she wanted to get with mike and yes, she was drunk, but she always says how she wants to..but now she has a boyfriend. but that didnt satop her. she kissed him anyways,
but now shes saying it was all mike's fault.
even though she was all over him basicaly. yes she was drunk, as was mike. but she just doesnt take responsibility for her actions.
it just..anoysme. she should just grow up abit more. she hurts peaople, and she doesnt seem to care.
now shes being all like ; i dont fancy u mike and i never had' and saying hes big headed for thinking she did... but like...anyone in their right mind would've thought she had some sorta..attraction to him by the way she acted on saturday and the other nmights.
drunk or not, its no excuse. you are stil responsible for the way you act.
gr
heh. Hohum.
Last night stayed round chris', listened to interpol, watched Pimp My Ride and listened to his song he recorded. then went to sleep quite early cause he had to be in work by 8.so he dropped me home about half 7:o I think that's the earlist i've been awake in sosososo long.
haven't psoken to him this evening though, he gone to bed early I think.
had a bath earlier. I keep having loads baths. its fun. But i need nice smellies.
also didn;t go to the photography thing either.rubbish. would've liked to go, but none of my ;friends' went so yea.
I duno, chris makes more of an effort then them, atleast i like..talk to him practicaly everyday.
but meh whatever.hohum
Now I think I should go to sleep and ..yea.
Nothing else to do.
hardly eaten anything today ..well apart from cereal and toast.
and abit of chocolate
Then in the evening I had a conversation with sam and sarah..
aparently i don't make the effort to ...iduno..be their friend.
whatever.they're so hypcritical..I don't see them making an effort, all I see is them saying shit about me,to me and behind my back for the last few months, and not being there for me when i've needed them. to me that's not very friendshiplike.
and yes of course thigns have changed between us, I do't go to therir school anymore, and I don't live near them..so of course I'll see them less. But tomblame it all on me is abit harsh, when they;re not even makin the ewffort themselve[ i apologise for spelling mistakes, but my computer is being rubbish and im typing too fast and it wont show what im writing, as im writing it hehe]
and yea
But i couldnt be bothered to argue with them..
i've kinda had enough.
Im never good enough for them.
and it does my head in.
at least i cna admit my faults, and accept responsibilty for them, which is one of the things i think they incapable of doing..,
take for example, sarah and mike on saturday.
sarah was saying how much she wanted to get with mike and yes, she was drunk, but she always says how she wants to..but now she has a boyfriend. but that didnt satop her. she kissed him anyways,
but now shes saying it was all mike's fault.
even though she was all over him basicaly. yes she was drunk, as was mike. but she just doesnt take responsibility for her actions.
it just..anoysme. she should just grow up abit more. she hurts peaople, and she doesnt seem to care.
now shes being all like ; i dont fancy u mike and i never had' and saying hes big headed for thinking she did... but like...anyone in their right mind would've thought she had some sorta..attraction to him by the way she acted on saturday and the other nmights.
drunk or not, its no excuse. you are stil responsible for the way you act.
gr
heh. Hohum.
Last night stayed round chris', listened to interpol, watched Pimp My Ride and listened to his song he recorded. then went to sleep quite early cause he had to be in work by 8.so he dropped me home about half 7:o I think that's the earlist i've been awake in sosososo long.
haven't psoken to him this evening though, he gone to bed early I think.
had a bath earlier. I keep having loads baths. its fun. But i need nice smellies.
also didn;t go to the photography thing either.rubbish. would've liked to go, but none of my ;friends' went so yea.
I duno, chris makes more of an effort then them, atleast i like..talk to him practicaly everyday.
but meh whatever.hohum
Now I think I should go to sleep and ..yea.
Nothing else to do.
hardly eaten anything today ..well apart from cereal and toast.
and abit of chocolate