I hate holidays
I always start off holidays in a good mood, thinking maybe this year will be better than the last ... And somehow it always gets ruined. Something always sets me off and gets me so angry or upset and then the rest of my day is ruined.
This year my brother got absolutely wasted at my aunt's house and was acting so awfully. It was so embarrassing and just put me in such a bad mood. He drinks SO much and it really worries me.
Now I'm just sitting here in my room all depressed reminiscing, thinking of the ways things used to be...I was so happy a year ago, everything was perfect, all of my friends were awesome, no one hated anyone else. Now ... so many ties have been severed, everything is ruined. I hate thinking about these things, but I just can't help it. Certain things in my life are constant reminders of certain things that have happened in the past or certain people. I know you're probably thinking "just forget about it Lauren, just forget it." Well I can't fucking forget it. I wish I could since I wouldn't have to feel this way, but at the same time, I don't want to forget, because that was the last time that I was genuinely happy.
<3always,
Lauren
This year my brother got absolutely wasted at my aunt's house and was acting so awfully. It was so embarrassing and just put me in such a bad mood. He drinks SO much and it really worries me.
Now I'm just sitting here in my room all depressed reminiscing, thinking of the ways things used to be...I was so happy a year ago, everything was perfect, all of my friends were awesome, no one hated anyone else. Now ... so many ties have been severed, everything is ruined. I hate thinking about these things, but I just can't help it. Certain things in my life are constant reminders of certain things that have happened in the past or certain people. I know you're probably thinking "just forget about it Lauren, just forget it." Well I can't fucking forget it. I wish I could since I wouldn't have to feel this way, but at the same time, I don't want to forget, because that was the last time that I was genuinely happy.
<3always,
Lauren