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Yesterday I found myself reading my entries in chronological order starting two years back and it was fascinating. Now I can fully love and appreciate my LJ and now I should write more often. It is such a pleasure to read the words I wrote because it is like a story. A story that I can relate to and remember almost as vividly as my current thoughts and expiriences. It was awesome to see how much I have changed and while all people have not changed that much I think I have become such an adult and it kinda scares me but at the same time I realize that, that is really who I am.
When I told Alex that I was such a little kid before he was like yes I know I am so glad you matured lol. He could have said something before. I guess we are all little kids until we have to fend for ourselves and do our own things. It is really liberating, I am very thankful that I am allowed to go to sleep when I want go out when I want and have no one to bother me at various times of the day...well unless you count Alex ...haha j/k. I cant say hateful things like that hehe!
I think it works out great...! When I go back and read my entries I have to ask myself "Did I really say those things?" Don't get me wrong I still act like a little kid but it is more noticeable now that its just me "acting" and not actually being a little kid. I got over all my phobias and insecurities so quickly its amazing wow. I am very happy with my current life. Its just hard sometimes to learn to be a wife just as I know its hard to learn to be a husband...hehe but its working out just fine.
When I told Alex that I was such a little kid before he was like yes I know I am so glad you matured lol. He could have said something before. I guess we are all little kids until we have to fend for ourselves and do our own things. It is really liberating, I am very thankful that I am allowed to go to sleep when I want go out when I want and have no one to bother me at various times of the day...well unless you count Alex ...haha j/k. I cant say hateful things like that hehe!
I think it works out great...! When I go back and read my entries I have to ask myself "Did I really say those things?" Don't get me wrong I still act like a little kid but it is more noticeable now that its just me "acting" and not actually being a little kid. I got over all my phobias and insecurities so quickly its amazing wow. I am very happy with my current life. Its just hard sometimes to learn to be a wife just as I know its hard to learn to be a husband...hehe but its working out just fine.