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Ok by now i dont know what ANYONE wants from me. Supposedly i get pissed easily over something "so stupid." But i'll just pretend it doesnt piss me off. Theres so many things i have to pretend are okay but they're not.
My advice: do whatever you want. Who really cares
..Because if i mention a little something from the past..im the wrong one for bringing it up. This year has definitly been the worst..i didnt think it could get any worse then last year but yeah..this year wins by far. I dont even know who i am anymore..last year i thought i'd turn out fine but ever since this school year began i've felt like nothing. My self esteem is lower then it ever has been and i've never been more depressed. I hate everyday of school..classes and even walking down the halls and seeing all my old memories of things that hurt me the most. Yeah i know im complaining but who doesnt complain. I hate how everynight in bed i hang up the phone and start crying because i replay everything in my head..things that were "mistakes" and things that werent. I'm so confused because i think that if i tried to change things..it would just make things even worse. Things arent turning out as i expected..i really dont like going through high school like this. I wish i could trust the people i care so much about..i wish for once..i could go through one day without having these stupid thoughts go through my head.
Dream On..