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So the page long email has been sent out, its been explained to everyone but saddly I still dont know how to explain my work situation right now.
Several months ago i asked for a day shift position when it became available if they were able to move me there. Last month they hired 2 nurses into my shift, then they hired 2 nurses into my new shift, and then they told me not to tell anyone but they were going to move me to days to help out with the holes on day shift left by my coworker who is out on FMLA.
So I've worked 2 weeks on days, i still dont know if i like being a day shifter, getting teased about being a trader for leaving night shift which the last thing i ever wanted to do is hurt the night shift staff. Getting asked if its permeated which it will be but not for awhile. And getting asked why, and its a long list of why. But the main one being I know my health is not were it should be. Being in my 20s and therefore protected by my age goes away in a year and i know i am dumber than i use to be, tired all the time, and continuously gaining weight. Right now I am 10 lbs lighter then i was a month ago, and i havent changed my eating habits.
On to the thing that has eaten my life, Roller Derby. Nov 18th i failed my basic skills test by 18 secs in the 25 laps in 5 mins, (basically a mile). The 2 page list of other skills i passed except a t-stop, this includes jumping 3 inches in the air over an object while skating. (always feel a little rockstarish when i land that jump). I wont say it didnt hurt not passing when everyone else did, yet another activity where everyone moves up in levels but me. But I want this, and i am tired of being left behind.
So I have been skating and skating, and skating, and basically if you want to socialize with me it better be one skates. Last saturday had a former speed coach giving me tips, basic stuff, look up, relax, listen to the music, and dont worry about falling. The nice part was then using it this friday and lapping nico and trigger (they were both having off days on skates but it still felt good).
As i put it i currently feel like i spent 8 weeks training, learning skills and practicing them. Then i am being sent home 2 months, with no coach, not able to jump broomsticks, practice falls or practice hitting people and then i am going to be retested... its scary cause i want this, i dont know if i can last a year waiting to get on the rookie team so i need to nail this test in january.
cause if i dont, then what do i do, attempting to move up in bellydancing isnt going to happen and I'm tired of everyone moving up but me, I'm too fat and not "dedicated" enough, never mind the fact i go to workshops, taught myself how to do laybacks and dance with a sword... its one of those i know i just dont fit there like i wish i did.
Several months ago i asked for a day shift position when it became available if they were able to move me there. Last month they hired 2 nurses into my shift, then they hired 2 nurses into my new shift, and then they told me not to tell anyone but they were going to move me to days to help out with the holes on day shift left by my coworker who is out on FMLA.
So I've worked 2 weeks on days, i still dont know if i like being a day shifter, getting teased about being a trader for leaving night shift which the last thing i ever wanted to do is hurt the night shift staff. Getting asked if its permeated which it will be but not for awhile. And getting asked why, and its a long list of why. But the main one being I know my health is not were it should be. Being in my 20s and therefore protected by my age goes away in a year and i know i am dumber than i use to be, tired all the time, and continuously gaining weight. Right now I am 10 lbs lighter then i was a month ago, and i havent changed my eating habits.
On to the thing that has eaten my life, Roller Derby. Nov 18th i failed my basic skills test by 18 secs in the 25 laps in 5 mins, (basically a mile). The 2 page list of other skills i passed except a t-stop, this includes jumping 3 inches in the air over an object while skating. (always feel a little rockstarish when i land that jump). I wont say it didnt hurt not passing when everyone else did, yet another activity where everyone moves up in levels but me. But I want this, and i am tired of being left behind.
So I have been skating and skating, and skating, and basically if you want to socialize with me it better be one skates. Last saturday had a former speed coach giving me tips, basic stuff, look up, relax, listen to the music, and dont worry about falling. The nice part was then using it this friday and lapping nico and trigger (they were both having off days on skates but it still felt good).
As i put it i currently feel like i spent 8 weeks training, learning skills and practicing them. Then i am being sent home 2 months, with no coach, not able to jump broomsticks, practice falls or practice hitting people and then i am going to be retested... its scary cause i want this, i dont know if i can last a year waiting to get on the rookie team so i need to nail this test in january.
cause if i dont, then what do i do, attempting to move up in bellydancing isnt going to happen and I'm tired of everyone moving up but me, I'm too fat and not "dedicated" enough, never mind the fact i go to workshops, taught myself how to do laybacks and dance with a sword... its one of those i know i just dont fit there like i wish i did.