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i've been so out of it today.
i have no idea what's going on with me.
im like..kinda depressed, but not? idk, it's hard to explain.
somethings going on though.
i went to sj to exchange some shit at forever21.
went to lunch with my mom and completely spaced out the whole time.
went tanning and almost fell asleep in the bed. didn't wanna get out when my 20 minutes were up.
went to get my nails done. i almost cried when they were taking the old acrylics off
and that shit NEVER ever bothers me. it made me kinda shakey and my hands got all clamy.
then when i was done i walked outside and stood infront of this jetta for seriously 5 minutes.
pressing the unlock button on my key and wondering why it wouldn't open.
seriously 5 MINUTES until i realized it wasnt my car. nice.
went to circuity city and they had NONE of the cd's i wanted.
and that's pretty much all i had planned for today.
im still not even NEAR used to hanging out alone.
i wish he'd come back.
i know it's pathetic that i cant just be content by myself..but i just...CANT.
i got kinda frustrated by something he said on the phone earlier.
i should be totally excited for him..and well...i guess i am.
but i didn't express that. i completely acted like i didnt care. :(
i feel baaaad.
whatever. i think i'm gonna go to the last show in sac.
surprise him maybe. or maybe tell him im going later on when it gets closer.
but still somehow try and make it a surprise.
DANNY, if you read this, dont tell him!! robbie you too! :)
blah blah blah i wish this mood would pass.
i wish it was next week already.
i have no idea what's going on with me.
im like..kinda depressed, but not? idk, it's hard to explain.
somethings going on though.
i went to sj to exchange some shit at forever21.
went to lunch with my mom and completely spaced out the whole time.
went tanning and almost fell asleep in the bed. didn't wanna get out when my 20 minutes were up.
went to get my nails done. i almost cried when they were taking the old acrylics off
and that shit NEVER ever bothers me. it made me kinda shakey and my hands got all clamy.
then when i was done i walked outside and stood infront of this jetta for seriously 5 minutes.
pressing the unlock button on my key and wondering why it wouldn't open.
seriously 5 MINUTES until i realized it wasnt my car. nice.
went to circuity city and they had NONE of the cd's i wanted.
and that's pretty much all i had planned for today.
im still not even NEAR used to hanging out alone.
i wish he'd come back.
i know it's pathetic that i cant just be content by myself..but i just...CANT.
i got kinda frustrated by something he said on the phone earlier.
i should be totally excited for him..and well...i guess i am.
but i didn't express that. i completely acted like i didnt care. :(
i feel baaaad.
whatever. i think i'm gonna go to the last show in sac.
surprise him maybe. or maybe tell him im going later on when it gets closer.
but still somehow try and make it a surprise.
DANNY, if you read this, dont tell him!! robbie you too! :)
blah blah blah i wish this mood would pass.
i wish it was next week already.