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My brother, Jimmy and my Dad are leaving in 15 hours to drive cross country.
My dad is coming back, but I won't see Alex or Jimmy till Christmas.
I'm pretty sure this is one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with in my life. It may seem stupid, but I feel so many different things right now. SO MANY.
I'm excited that my brother is leaving to live a dream. He is going to be pursuing his passion. He is going to be working towards stardom. I know this is what he needs to do to get there.
I'm sad because my little brother, the one person that means more to me than anything in this universe, is going to be on the other side of the country. The kid that can make me laugh no matter what. The average person couldnt even imagine how many memories him and I have together.
I'm so nervous, SO FUCKING NERVOUS. Man, it puts me on edge to know that my rock is going to be 3000 miles away. He is my rock. The one person that can sit me down and talk sense into me. We've never been apart for more than 2 weeks. He knows me better than anyone in this world. He is the only person that can truly cheer me up and put all the pieces back together for me. Its mutual. Him and I have always been together when we needed eachother. I'm so nervous just thinking about what it'll be like to go through certain things on my own away from him.
I'm curious to see what kind of doors this opens for him, Jimmy and myself. There is no doubt that things are going to happen, but theres no way to know until it happens.
I'm dreading the second or third sunday morning from now. Ugh. Our sundays consisted of waking up around exactly the same time as eachother and spending the majority of our day hanging out and doing all of the things that needed to get done together. I've been bored before, but never REALLY bored because we would always just hang out.
The thought of a quiet house makes my skin crawl.
While I was loading all of his stuff into the truck I got this intense feeling of sadness. I've never gone a day in this house without hearing him play music non-stop. Just the typical jam sessions where he messes around and the way he writes his music. I have always been, and will always be his number one fan.
Maybe I'm just a big whimp, maybe you think I'm being over-dramatic, but honestly, My best friend, my brother, my blood, my rock, my favorite person in the world is not going to be around anymore. I know he'll be a phone call away but it's just not the same. He will be insanely busy with his music and work and school and I will be busy with work. I just hope, really really hope hes smart. I hope LA doesnt chew him up and spit him out. I hope he doesn't change. I hope he stays the same Alex I know.
This sucks.
My dad is coming back, but I won't see Alex or Jimmy till Christmas.
I'm pretty sure this is one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with in my life. It may seem stupid, but I feel so many different things right now. SO MANY.
I'm excited that my brother is leaving to live a dream. He is going to be pursuing his passion. He is going to be working towards stardom. I know this is what he needs to do to get there.
I'm sad because my little brother, the one person that means more to me than anything in this universe, is going to be on the other side of the country. The kid that can make me laugh no matter what. The average person couldnt even imagine how many memories him and I have together.
I'm so nervous, SO FUCKING NERVOUS. Man, it puts me on edge to know that my rock is going to be 3000 miles away. He is my rock. The one person that can sit me down and talk sense into me. We've never been apart for more than 2 weeks. He knows me better than anyone in this world. He is the only person that can truly cheer me up and put all the pieces back together for me. Its mutual. Him and I have always been together when we needed eachother. I'm so nervous just thinking about what it'll be like to go through certain things on my own away from him.
I'm curious to see what kind of doors this opens for him, Jimmy and myself. There is no doubt that things are going to happen, but theres no way to know until it happens.
I'm dreading the second or third sunday morning from now. Ugh. Our sundays consisted of waking up around exactly the same time as eachother and spending the majority of our day hanging out and doing all of the things that needed to get done together. I've been bored before, but never REALLY bored because we would always just hang out.
The thought of a quiet house makes my skin crawl.
While I was loading all of his stuff into the truck I got this intense feeling of sadness. I've never gone a day in this house without hearing him play music non-stop. Just the typical jam sessions where he messes around and the way he writes his music. I have always been, and will always be his number one fan.
Maybe I'm just a big whimp, maybe you think I'm being over-dramatic, but honestly, My best friend, my brother, my blood, my rock, my favorite person in the world is not going to be around anymore. I know he'll be a phone call away but it's just not the same. He will be insanely busy with his music and work and school and I will be busy with work. I just hope, really really hope hes smart. I hope LA doesnt chew him up and spit him out. I hope he doesn't change. I hope he stays the same Alex I know.
This sucks.