Life Blows

[laurenzo88]

Today was the first day of school, and it sucked so bad. My mom wont let me homeschool. I still cannot stop crying or thinking about him. THe night sky was so amazing tonight, but all I could think about is how I wish that Mike was here to share it with me. How can you have so much hatred in your heart for someone but never stop thinking about that

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[tebear21]

Hey hun! I'm so sorry this is so tough for you and your so confused about your feelings and emotions. I know it really sucks...and there's never anything anyone can say to make it better or make it go away. And no matter what advice or anyone tells you, your not just going to get over it or forget about it. But it just takes time, and Sara's right...this too will pass...eventually. Just hang in there until then. Call me anytime also. And because of what i said on Mike's journal please don't think i'm justifying what he did in any way. I'm totally on your side that it was a horrible act. Don not blame yourself though, it's not in any way your fault. And i'm just a firm believer in not fretting over things that are out of your control. Who knows if he's really being honest in feeling bad about what he did.. Only him and Jehovah really know. But in trying to be a good christian i'm trying to be compassionate like Jehovah and forgiving like i know we're supposed to be. I know that's alot easier for me to do though, and rightly so. Anyway, love you lots. =)