northeast bound
finally. i got my first wave of home-sickness earlier this summer. if you've been reading my blog you know i've been a hot mess in general. lately, i can't even sleep well through the night. i've been taking sleep aids to help. i've grown more emotional by the day. i don't know who my friends are. i'm scared to take real steps in my career.
going back to the northeast for a week. mom says she'll actually have time for me. 3 of my favorite people live in pa. 2 of my favorites live in nyc- where i'll be this weekend. i want to go to the mother fuckin ocean. i'm trying to fit that in. i want to be away from everything here. i love co, but i'm losing sight about why i like it. i need to be away from flakes, career limbo, a confusing romantic life, and questioning every other gray area that's been going on. i *believe* i will find some peace there, being in my favorite city, being near real bodies of water, being with people who just KNOW me. i'm gonna forget about everything and come back with clarity.
successful or not, this will be my last "dark" entry for a while. it must be annoying. thanks for listening. have a great week. hopefully see u all next weekend...and of course at my naked 25th on the 20th this month. xoxo.
going back to the northeast for a week. mom says she'll actually have time for me. 3 of my favorite people live in pa. 2 of my favorites live in nyc- where i'll be this weekend. i want to go to the mother fuckin ocean. i'm trying to fit that in. i want to be away from everything here. i love co, but i'm losing sight about why i like it. i need to be away from flakes, career limbo, a confusing romantic life, and questioning every other gray area that's been going on. i *believe* i will find some peace there, being in my favorite city, being near real bodies of water, being with people who just KNOW me. i'm gonna forget about everything and come back with clarity.
successful or not, this will be my last "dark" entry for a while. it must be annoying. thanks for listening. have a great week. hopefully see u all next weekend...and of course at my naked 25th on the 20th this month. xoxo.