well well
I guess it looks like i am turning into one of those people with a Live Journal and a My Space thing... ( not that there is anything wrong with them ) So I definitely agree with Adam on this no offense to the people who do this but who does want to read about what you ate that day or what you did... although I will be writing more about my thougts hopefully there interesting I think they are! I love this song it reminds me of Andrew and I love Andrew he is the best!! Hey Adam i even used your nick name for me as my LJ name thingy <3 I miss adam Kennedy. But whats really been on my mind is the bull shit here always here, I HATE DRAMA. I don't get some of my friends, I am so nice to them and yet they slap me in the face still its a bitch. I was talking to Camille and she said " Lauren your one of the people who takes the most crap from people and still are so sweet to them no matter what." I just laughed and said thanks. Hmmmm am I really like that? I believe it in some ways. Some people really hurt my feelings like when they dont CALL YOU BACKKKK even though that is gay or when they DONT TALK TO YOU AS MUCH ANYMORE or when there SARCASTIC and I dont get it right now petaluma sucks ass and I hate it thats why I am glad I am in Marin but I really miss you guys at home a lot :) I get very lonely and depressed here and when no one is there it fuckin sucks even more!! Sometimes I reaLLY dont understand people.... Life is so complex sometimes but it can be really great... Like two weekends ago when I was with Andrew and Danny and then Andrew, Phil and Nikki, when I am with Andrew he makes me so very happy/ laugh a lot and just feel good and I spent a lot of time with him that weekend so my whole weekend was good. And Phil well he makes me laugh alot like Andrew does. Of course Nikki and I normally have a good time together ....But there is something about certain people, does anyone else no what I am talking about? I wish things could be like that always, am I even making sense... I gotta pee be back in a couple minutes- okay baCK got something to drinkkk and relived my self. But is life to me is life a rainbow, I view each color as an emotion and each day we go through a color but who knows any more life seems hopeless but then again maybe not, maybe not on that note i have nothing else to say i have to figure out how to work the rest of this.. I am such a fucking moron it will take me forever haha *good night even though i dont think i will sleeping tonight *