i wish i could go back to college...
So, the exciting, fun "this is awesome!" part of my life has warn off, and now i'm just overwhelmed by it all. I love to day to day of my job, but can't do this for the long-run. So, I've started researching the grad school option. Columbia's Biostatistics proram app. deadline is Feb 1 so I have some time to decide. Its not the best program out there, but its not the worst....and while the descriptioin of their intro class is stuff I've already studied, it'll be nice to have at least one math class where I'm the on the smart side for a change - at least, I hope so. And besides, its Colummbia, how bad could it possibly be? There isn't a single other program near NYC thats remotely decent anyway.
So, I like life when I'm at work or with Mark, but its the post-work hours that are still super lonely and suburban-blah that are really really starting to get to me. I listen to my ipod at the office to drown out super loud guy behind me, and this afternoon, "i wish i could go back to college" from Ave Q pops up on the mix....I just about started bawling at my desk. For all the ups and downs that were college, it was at least fucking easier than life after. Sigh. But, i'll make it - i've decided to scrapbook the photos I have as combination therapy/get over it/ and keep myself busy in the evenings project....we'll see how long this adventures lasts. Given that I did 2 pages tonight, I'm guessing not long.
For those of you who dont know the lyrics, i've posted them below because right now i feel like its me in a song, which is pretty rare nowadays. Enjoy.
I wish I could go back to college.
Life was so simple back then.
What would I give to go back and live in a dorm with a meal plan again!
I wish I could go back to college.
In college you know who you are.
You sit in the quad, and think, "Oh my God!
I am totally gonna go far!"
How do I go back to college?
I don't know who I am anymore!
I wanna go back to my room and find a message in dry-erase pen on the door!
Ohhh...
I wish I could just drop a class...
Or get into a play...
Or change my major...
Or fuck my [U.C.A.]
I need an academic advisor to point the way!
We could be...
Sitting in the computer lab,
4 A.M. before the final paper is due,
Cursing the world 'cause I didn't start sooner,
And seeing the rest of the class there, too!
I wish I could go back to college!
How do I go back to college?!
AHHHH...
I wish I had taken more pictures.
But if I were to go back to college,
Think what a loser I'd be-
I'd walk through the quad,
And think "Oh my God..."
"These kids are so much younger than me."
but, as the next song says, "its only for now" -- so i guess there's hope that it'll get easier. I hope the rest of you grads are doing better at adjusting than me, and if in a few weeks you hit the same post-"this is great!" slump, know that you're not alone, and you're always welcome to come vist Jersey.
So, I like life when I'm at work or with Mark, but its the post-work hours that are still super lonely and suburban-blah that are really really starting to get to me. I listen to my ipod at the office to drown out super loud guy behind me, and this afternoon, "i wish i could go back to college" from Ave Q pops up on the mix....I just about started bawling at my desk. For all the ups and downs that were college, it was at least fucking easier than life after. Sigh. But, i'll make it - i've decided to scrapbook the photos I have as combination therapy/get over it/ and keep myself busy in the evenings project....we'll see how long this adventures lasts. Given that I did 2 pages tonight, I'm guessing not long.
For those of you who dont know the lyrics, i've posted them below because right now i feel like its me in a song, which is pretty rare nowadays. Enjoy.
I wish I could go back to college.
Life was so simple back then.
What would I give to go back and live in a dorm with a meal plan again!
I wish I could go back to college.
In college you know who you are.
You sit in the quad, and think, "Oh my God!
I am totally gonna go far!"
How do I go back to college?
I don't know who I am anymore!
I wanna go back to my room and find a message in dry-erase pen on the door!
Ohhh...
I wish I could just drop a class...
Or get into a play...
Or change my major...
Or fuck my [U.C.A.]
I need an academic advisor to point the way!
We could be...
Sitting in the computer lab,
4 A.M. before the final paper is due,
Cursing the world 'cause I didn't start sooner,
And seeing the rest of the class there, too!
I wish I could go back to college!
How do I go back to college?!
AHHHH...
I wish I had taken more pictures.
But if I were to go back to college,
Think what a loser I'd be-
I'd walk through the quad,
And think "Oh my God..."
"These kids are so much younger than me."
but, as the next song says, "its only for now" -- so i guess there's hope that it'll get easier. I hope the rest of you grads are doing better at adjusting than me, and if in a few weeks you hit the same post-"this is great!" slump, know that you're not alone, and you're always welcome to come vist Jersey.