id take my own life before loosing you
well today was really really fun started shitty but turned out to be okay
my alarm went off at 9 like usual on a work day cuz yesterday morning i forgot to not reset it and it woke me up on a bloody saturday morning but thats okay i got up and read some harry potter and it was all good. Than mommy said i we were going to the beach and so was adam so i met up with adam at the beach. Twas fabulous we swam gossiped a bit than met up with gregg kaplan and brandon smyth and swam and walked around. Than i laid down and read some more. Adam left and i ate food with the fam. By 5 oclock most everyone had left the beach it was so quiet and peaceful. All the life guards were gone and so were most people and i just laid there and went in the water and than i climbed up on a life guard stand and watched the water and read some. Not to sound like a retard but it was so beautiful.
and than i went back in my chair and these cute guys stole my life guard stand so i started talking to them for a while than i realized i had to go meet my parents and i went home.
yep idk i just did alot of thinking sitting on the beach it was so great especially wen alot of ppl left and it was way quiet and pretty I wanna live at the beach.
lately i havent been feeling so great (mentally) idk watever hopefully i can just learn to be happy sooner or later im trying to enjoy myself but sometimes its just so hard i dont know why but whatever its not like any of you care.
<333 lauren
my alarm went off at 9 like usual on a work day cuz yesterday morning i forgot to not reset it and it woke me up on a bloody saturday morning but thats okay i got up and read some harry potter and it was all good. Than mommy said i we were going to the beach and so was adam so i met up with adam at the beach. Twas fabulous we swam gossiped a bit than met up with gregg kaplan and brandon smyth and swam and walked around. Than i laid down and read some more. Adam left and i ate food with the fam. By 5 oclock most everyone had left the beach it was so quiet and peaceful. All the life guards were gone and so were most people and i just laid there and went in the water and than i climbed up on a life guard stand and watched the water and read some. Not to sound like a retard but it was so beautiful.
and than i went back in my chair and these cute guys stole my life guard stand so i started talking to them for a while than i realized i had to go meet my parents and i went home.
yep idk i just did alot of thinking sitting on the beach it was so great especially wen alot of ppl left and it was way quiet and pretty I wanna live at the beach.
lately i havent been feeling so great (mentally) idk watever hopefully i can just learn to be happy sooner or later im trying to enjoy myself but sometimes its just so hard i dont know why but whatever its not like any of you care.
<333 lauren