second best
my favourite friend came and stayed over friday and saturday night. we stayed up and talked and slept in my collapsable bed and caught up and then she moved back home on sunday. it was nice to be able to spend some quality time with her before she left hamilton for good. we ate like PIGS at the keg... so much we couldn't move... sick.
she won the msa appreciation award on saturday... which means i didn't... which is alright. i felt bad for a few seconds because even though i was so happy for her, i guess i just felt disappointed at the same time. that sounds really selfish and i know it is really selfish. ... but i worked my ass off too and it seems like everytime the paper gets recognition its all about her and how great she is. and she is great, and professional, and brilliant, and kind, and everything that could be wonderful about a person. i just felt... like i tried to so hard and did so much and nobody gave a shit. like i was never even there. oh well. second best is what i do best i guess.
now i'm at work, wearing those black heels that make my ankles ache and i'm thinking about mike instead of working.
she won the msa appreciation award on saturday... which means i didn't... which is alright. i felt bad for a few seconds because even though i was so happy for her, i guess i just felt disappointed at the same time. that sounds really selfish and i know it is really selfish. ... but i worked my ass off too and it seems like everytime the paper gets recognition its all about her and how great she is. and she is great, and professional, and brilliant, and kind, and everything that could be wonderful about a person. i just felt... like i tried to so hard and did so much and nobody gave a shit. like i was never even there. oh well. second best is what i do best i guess.
now i'm at work, wearing those black heels that make my ankles ache and i'm thinking about mike instead of working.